I've come so far with my life. I've come so far since my diagnosis. I am so close to graduating college. Three weeks, in fact. But none of it matters. It's all gone to waste. One class. One teacher. One fucking project throws me off. I don't understand the language. I'm trying to work with PHP to build a website. But I can't grasp it. I'm going to fail the class. I'm going to miss out on graduation. It's going to ruin EVERYTHING. And as much as I wanted to achieve this goal, if I fail, I'm done. I'm not coming back to college. I'll find a job. I'll pay off my debt. I'll work my life away. I can't do this. I feel so lost and confused. I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack. I feel so damn useless. Five years of college, all gone to waste. I was almost there. I almost had it. Everything I ever wanted. Why do I even try anymore...