Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I'm really new to this site, but I could use a little support. I feel like no one understands or cares.
I've just received, for probably the 10th time in my adult life, a "fuck off and die" email from my best friend. Someone who called me her sister, and who promised she'd be there through thick and thin. I've been crying for hours. I'd love to drown myself in the swimming pool, but I'm convinced that God hates me so much that what he'd have waiting for me on the other side is a repetitious cycle of "fuck off and die" emails from every person I've ever cared about. So I'm now stuck in this cycle of wanting to just completely fry my brain. I have absolutely nothing left: no job, no life, and a best friend who swore she'd always be there who just hit the bricks and will never look back. I am literally beyond all help or recognition. I want to turn off my emotions forever---completely eradicate any feeling from my body. I want to care about no one and nothing.zombie, drone, android. I try to protect myself and I let my guard down and look what the fuck happens. God sends people who say they love me and then they turn around when the going gets tough and snatch it the fuck awayand they never ever rethink their choices.
How do you keep moving forward treating your depression when you are faced with a life where every person you ever care about you destroy to the point where they stop caring that you exist?
I've just received, for probably the 10th time in my adult life, a "fuck off and die" email from my best friend. Someone who called me her sister, and who promised she'd be there through thick and thin. I've been crying for hours. I'd love to drown myself in the swimming pool, but I'm convinced that God hates me so much that what he'd have waiting for me on the other side is a repetitious cycle of "fuck off and die" emails from every person I've ever cared about. So I'm now stuck in this cycle of wanting to just completely fry my brain. I have absolutely nothing left: no job, no life, and a best friend who swore she'd always be there who just hit the bricks and will never look back. I am literally beyond all help or recognition. I want to turn off my emotions forever---completely eradicate any feeling from my body. I want to care about no one and nothing.zombie, drone, android. I try to protect myself and I let my guard down and look what the fuck happens. God sends people who say they love me and then they turn around when the going gets tough and snatch it the fuck awayand they never ever rethink their choices.
How do you keep moving forward treating your depression when you are faced with a life where every person you ever care about you destroy to the point where they stop caring that you exist?
I am sorry you are going through all this pain. I cant say I understand fully. I dont. Im not you. However, I have survived alot of pain from alot of people in my own life so I have some experience in moving on.
I do not believe at all that God hates you. Yes, I am a Christian and attend church, but I am not a religious fanatic so please dont take my thoughts as if they are coming from such a place. I just know God to a level I cant not grasp God hating someone he created.
Do you know why your friend sent you this email? Knowing why does helping in healing. I totally get about shutting off your emotions. Been there before alot and still get there every so often. What I do is I get mad. I get mad at the world and people and I use that anger as energy to fuel my desires to keep going and rebuilding just to piss the world and people off. I dont hurt anyone in my anger, but I get so anger that I get back up from the pain and I get going with my life for me. Whatever I like, I go after. As long as no one is getting hurt, I get after what I want that makes me happy. I do whatever is healthy to keep me emotionally healing and moving on. Name it, as long as its legal and no one is getting hurt, Im in if it helps me.
Okay, well, my brain is tire so this is the best I can offer, but I hope things get better for you. Refuse to fall for anyone. Stand for yourself and piss them all off.