When I saw that my depression was at its worst I finally talked to my wife about it.

Best thing I ever did!

She does not really understand it, but it helped me just to talk about it.

Marriages take work, hard work!

I second what Pepper said for sure. My husband and I try hard to be open and honest and vulnerable with each other, and not to hurt the other when they are being vulnerable. Of course it takes two working on it. Are you seeing a therapist? Have you thought about it? Would he go with you?

I can imagine how stressful it is living with your mother. That surely adds a level of stress to the marriage as well.

I am sorry you are in so much pain. I know how that feels. As my psychiatrist once told me, when major things go wrong in life people will question whether life is worth continuing. So in a way, your feelings are normal, but please do not act on them. I have seen over the course of my life that once a given crisis passes, I am so glad I hung in there. If it is any comfort, many people in today's world are having the kinds of problems you describe: job issues, not enough money, having to live with a parent and it is stressful. But these situations will get better if you hang in there and find a way to problem solve. Are you in therapy? Do you take meds? I do both.

I agree with other who have posted, you and your husband need some deep and honest communication about how you are feeling. You say he is depressed, too. Perhaps you should see a relationship counselor, or both have some kind of tools. I know you said money is an issue, but maybe there is a way to work things out to get professional help. But when even one person in a relationship is depressed, let alone both, its normal that there will be emotional distance.

I so hope you find the answers you need, and you have a good day,

Oh, I hope you feel better soon...you've accomplished so much. Navigating the job market, marriage...living with your mother. Maybe you and your husband could get together and discuss the situation with your mother. If the 2 of you went to her together... not to "attack" her but show her that if she was more mentally supportive it might help provide a solution that would help everyone? She might think she's being helpful and supportive but maybe she'll understand if you explain that her approach is making things harder. He might not be willing to do that with you but sometimes even just attempting a "baby step" in a situation yourself can make u feel better. It might not work but you might feel better that you tried.