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I've been feeling so unbelievably depressed lately but no one will believe me. I tried to reach out and talk to some people but nobody will listen. I tried to talk to my mom but she just yelled at me. I can't talk to my dad because he's my boss and I feel like I don't have a personal relationship with him anymore. And my sister is just a bitch. I don't have any friends. I couldn't go to work today... I tried to talk to my mom but she just yelled at me. So I left and was on my way home to try and commit suicide. It's been a thought it my head for a long time, I've never told anyone that because it has always just been in the background. But these past couple days it's all I can think about. I don't want to do this anymore (life) I don't want to feel this way anymore. It's crushing me. I was on my way home to do it but I had to stop at my ex's house to pick up some things. I just walked in, didn't say a word just started gathering my things. I was ready to leave but he wouldn't let me. I was crying hysterically and now i'm glad he didn't let me leave. But I know I am going to feel this way again. I just don't know what to do... How do I deal with this by myself? because everyone else is either to busy or to annoyed to deal with me. And everyone just makes me feel like a horrible person, and I believe them. I cannot think of any reason to keep going. Except my cats because I know no one would want them both but maybe if I wasn't here anymore my ex would take them if there wasn't another option for them. But other than that whats left? I have no friends, my family thinks I'm annoying and thinks I'm just faking it. How can I deal with this by myself?
heretic
Meds. And therapy. It's a good start.
A101
I am sorry you feel this way, it sounds really tough, and you are really strong. You are not a horrible person, and you don't have to go through this on your own! there is a lot of people going through the same emotions, you are not on your own. you can get through this and this will 'eventually' pass! Everyone expresses their emotions differently and I think maybe your mum reacted that way because she expresses her worry for you through anger, shes worried and doesn't know what to do, or doesn't quite understand or is unable to relate because she lacks the knowledge of what depression is. or maybe she was angry about something going on in her own life which has nothing to do with you. Keep expressing your feelings until you find someone who does listen! because eventually someone will! are you able to see a psychologist, or cbt? because it could be a great start in the right direction, or at least see your doctor to see if they can recommend someone who you can see. keep getting up take the smallest of steps and you will get through this and come out the other side so much stronger and happier. as horrible as it currently is like everything anger, depression, anxiety pass and eventually so will this. stay strong. you could start by every morning telling yourself a positive statement like I am worthy, or this will pass, or todays a new day, anything that works for you and eventually you will start to believe it! All the best in your journey! you are strong! and you can get through this :)
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