ive been on tiktok for a while now and learned A LOT of things which im very grateful for because i can educate myself more, but im an exetremley sensitive person and just realizing all of the messed of things going on in the world like racism, i truly seriously feel like there is absolutley no hope for this world and its an exetremley overwhelming feeling, and yeah i know racist people arent truly happy or succesful in a religious or spiritual way but i feel like that is not enough consequence, because they are ruining are the peoples lives, literally and i feel very helpless and yeah i can and definitley will educate myself, but still it feels very hard knowing im surrounded by racist people, (not my family) but my church has different races, well only two races but one of them are african which is what i am and i remember from a young age facing racism there, there were kids in a room and i was one of them, i was in the corner and very shy as always, but some kids were playing soccer and the ball came to me and i didnt do anything but one of the boys started yelling at me saying i stole it and i remember feeling out of place there and kind of like everyone hated me, i think this also another reaosn why i developed social anxiety, anyways that same guy also yelled at me, my sister and cousin one time when we came to church and told us we were only there because of the food, and there was more racist things that happened but those are the ones i remember vividly, but yeah theres also racist people at my school and performative activists which make me exetremley upset and hopeless, and its not even about me, its more about peopel who face racial injustice, it makes me want to cry because theres literally nothing i can do to change racist people from hurting others
So yeah, not sure if I belong here or not. Any input would be helpful. I have researched the signs and symptoms of porn/sex addiction and I still can't tell if I really have an addiction or just a "healthy appetite".I have been looking at porn since I was a teenager. I have had many intimate relationships, most of them long term, and I have never cheated on anyone. I've been married twice but...
I've been feeling exetremley bored and depressed, like nothing makes me happy and nothing feels Interesting, I'm not suicidal I just feel like nothing is important or matters