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I cant think of one reason to keep living. Since i got on tri-cyclic anti-depressants i really dont want to die.. i feel like i was more true to myself without them. Do i want to die.. eh.. do i have anything to live for? not a one.. nay nay nay..
My disability company put a halt on my disability award because their doctor says "I dont see a reason why he cant work". Although my doctor has a bulleted list of reasons.
My lawyers who are supposed to be helping me told me "We have 3 months to decide if we think the case is viable for litigation" in other word.. 'will we make enough money off this case to make it worth our while.' i can tell you the answer to that is no. Even if i do win it. the lawyers get 1/3 of my money for the next 20 some odd years.
My house was destroyed in Hurricane Harvey. Now they want to condemn the buliding.
Wells Fargo, who holds my mortgage, keeps asking me for inane paperwork before they will give me the ONE document that will let United way.. or whoever.. make a donation to cover ONE month of mortgage.
The building is going to be condemned so we've been appealing flood control to buy us out. Last week they said they are not interested in buying our property. Here is what they DONT say.. we dont want it because when you get condemned and have to move out anyway.. we'll get the property for MUCH cheaper.
The lawyers who are doing the flood case against the release of the dam's that was the cause of our problems.. waited 2 months to tell me they refused to take my case against fema. Well that was what 2 weeks ago. Now that the 1yr anniversary is here we are out of statue of limitations for it. nobody CAN take it now.
My pain doc is going to eject me from his care because i went to vegas.. and when i came back i tested positive for THC. (which is legal in vegas) but not in texas.. so he cant afford the liability of treating me.
Which means i have 2 impants in my body that are going to go unmonitored.
I'm ONLY worth more alive because if i was dead they wouldnt have me to torture.
I agree with Simpsons, the best thing to do is keep finding solutions and take it one step at a time. Is there anyone you can stay with if they condemn your house? Somewhere you can find a new doctor, get some government help, and get back on your feet?
It sounds like you want to live, but your situation is extremely difficult right now. Just remember that this situation doesn't define you. I would also suggest maybe going to the press and airing grievances about these institutions and people who are failing you.
One step at a time, one day at a time. You know who you are underneath all this mess. Imagine a future where you get out of it all. Visualizing can do wonders. I wish you all the best! Warm hugs. Keep us updated.