I have had depression since i was 18 since then things have gotten alot worse with my age i now have anxiety and panic attacks too...also have emphyesema and other physical problems too.
I was homeless for 9months but recently got a houseshare with one person and we really are two different people and don't always get on. I didnt realise at the time of signing that he is friends with the landlord before he started renting from them and his ex partner witnessed the signing of the tenancy at the time i was also unaware of and so i feel that no matter what i say or do its going to go one way for me and not the way i would hope
I have no family or friends to talk to as i have moved 365miles away to be near mum who is the only person who would offer me 3 nights a week sleep at her house dispite me having 3 grown up children and so called friends i had nowhere else to go so feel awful that i can no longer see my grandchildren and miss them dearly
I feel so lonely and isolated and im aware that im killing myself quicker with the amount of smoking im doing but im so depressed i did take an overdose in october too
Before I start I just want to make it clear it’s late and I’m dyslexic so excuse the multiple spelling errors to come lol. Anyway, how did you get out?i see a lot of stuff about depression, but I can’t ever seem to find a awnser on how to get rid of it. Though I hear people talk about medication, and therapy. And as much as I would love to try those things, I can’t because of my home...
I'm so fucked up. I don't even know what to do anymore. I can't to anything without my thoughts being present. Every single fucking day. Everyone says your life will come together piece by piece and row by row but I have no clue where the fucking pieces go. I want a life...I want my baggage to disapear. I don't know what to do I'm alone I'm always there for other people but who the hell is there...