itzjustme,
PLEASE post whenever and how often as ever you feel like you need a little more support - that's what we're here to do! don't EVER feel like people are going to get sick of you - and if they do, so what? there will always be people here to answer your posts and offer you support when you need it.
sometimes, birthdays are a little bit harder than we think they are... so it's not unusual in any way... hang in there and reach out, again, WHENEVER you feel like you need it..

HUGS AND KISSES TO YOU!!!

Hang in there. Maybe if we knew more about what's going on then we could help?

It sounds like chronic depression to me, but to be honest you should talk to a mental health professional (psychiatrist, psychologist).

I hope you have a good birthday, despite how last week was for you.

thnak you gys soooooo much!

im not happy because i really want therapy and my dad is not taking me wen he know it wont cost him anything , and im just really sad and i dont wanna deal with the mood swings.....i hate living here....and sometimes i hate living

no one understands me....im just tired of everything and i wish my dad would send me to the hospital already so that i can get out of poeples way....i hate that im here on this earth but not, like i just with i cud go invisible....im a walking breathing zombie in a sense.....i dont rly know how to explain

you don't have to explain hon, a lot of us have been there - the sense that you don't "really" want to die, but you don't "really" want to live either - the "walking zombie" thing that you're talking about.
it seems to me that you're in a really tough spot - i noticed that you're a minor - and your parents still have legal authority over you. but it seems like your father is not considering how serious depression really is (people without depression often think we can just "snap out of it"). is there a trusted counselor at school that you might be able to talk to? it seems to me like someone closer to your situation might have a better handle on what might be able to be done...

my dad works at the new school he put me and my twin in....ughhh....another story of my misery....i talk to her but she said she doesnt want to talk to my dad, she wants me to talk to a professional.....but since they work together shes not, so im going no where with her....yea im under my dads rooof...i keep running away not for long...i hate it here sooooooooo much! and my mom goes well u only have one yr....but im on the verge on doing something i dont want to...i rly dont wanna cut again but im starting to think bout it more

i rly r;y want helpp so badd! i hate this depression, but then again who does?

Hi Itz,
Don't feel alone anymore, we have all been there, some still there with you, we understand where you're coming from and what's going through your mind. We are here to give you support, maybe even put a smile on your face now and then. We don't laugh at you, we laugh with you, and try to lighten up your burdens. We will only show you love and understanding, and never get sick of you.
So post away keep us informed with, what's going on in your life and mind. Let us share with you, give you a shoulder to cry on, and be your crouch when you need someone to lean on.
Hugs to you. Remember come back anytime.

There's nothing wrong with a good cry some times hon... Happy birthday in advance. How about a nice hot shower and a little tv before bed? hugs to ya

I know this guy who seems to post every single random thought that crosses his twisted mind, and the rest of us are just waiting for the next one because we cant get enough!!!
besides with all the illicit drug use around here no one remembers anything anyway!
so post to your hearts content and damn the consequences!

hugs and high fives Itzy :)

awwwwwww u guys are the bestt!!! thank you for the early bday wishes....ill be 17 will have any right or not yet?

1sick u made me lol haha.....you know im gonna try my best to write a journal about this house that i hate so much and let you guys read it...it will explain why i hate being here and wontbe part of it

xoxox

tell us when you write it and we'll read it! and then give you tons of unsolicited advice...

oh ltzjustme,
I would love to read your journal. I think it helps to write and some will reply and that helps me. So please take care I don't post much eather but I love to come and read I get good lol sometimes. just join in K
hugs

I think I have told you this before, that you need to go to your counselor at school and tell them that you need counseling but your father refuses to take you because of the money. Unfortunately you do need to be seeing someone to get better. I know it is tough and I don't know how your dad will react but the counselors will amke sure that you can gt the help you need.
If he refuses then they could proabably get hm for endangerment of a child or something. That might open his eyes up. Please think about it. Or is there any other adult in your family (aunt, uncle, cousin) that could take you?? I wish you the best luck and please do not be afraid to post here. That is what it is for. I mean we have people on here who post nothing but stupid suff but for the most part we are alll here whenever you need us.

I remember feeling the same way you do. I attempted suicide twice obviously there's a reason I'm still here. Thank God because now I get to see my grandaughter grow up. Sometimes the pain gets so bad I want to give up to. Your doing the right thing sharing your thoughts and feelings with us. I didn't do that I held it all inside of me until I exploded. I totally agree you need some help a good counselor can do wonders for dealing with the stresses of life. You write until your hearts content share and share often just don't do any harm to yourself. Sending lots of love your way, Marci

hi guys...i wrote the journal i was telling u about

and u knw its not about money either because we have health insurance so co pay is $5 its not about the money either....he just left to take my lil sis to the hospital