Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Most of the time I feel dead inside. Right now I'm just going through the motions, I feel sick (like literally, physically sick) and I'm sick of being here. This is no life I don't have any friends, sometimes when I pray to God I pray for mercy in that he doesn't wake me up. I've thought about/made plans to yoke myself for good in the past but now I'm feeling much more resolved about it. I'm tired of God dragging me along under his boot when there is nothing for me here. Can't do this anymore, won't do this anymore. By this time next year I will at least have tried to say my last good bye.
What have you got to lose..reach out to your parents. Having children in emotional distress is really really tough for many parents. I am sure that they care more than you could ever imagine.
You are not well. Your brain connectors are not making the proper connections. You may even be physically sick too. Get to a doctor, get help. check your diet, try to exercise.
I have been where you are. I had to find my rational mind...the small part that knew that this was temporary. It is a fight! But please fight!! I look back at journals from that time in my life and see how much I wanted to end it all. But, I didn't and I am so happy to be alive.
One more thing that helps me...try to find the energy to do something nice for someone in need. When I find that I can get out of my head and out of "me" and focus on the needs of someone else, I always feel a little better.
I wish you happiness, Good luck....