Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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kailajo318 01/25/2015

So I have struggled with this continually for over a year now, but it gets especially bad when my mood takes a turn for the worse or I'm very anxious, but I didn't know where to post this, so I'm making it a note.
I keep getting a feeling that I'm not really here. I feel like I'm dreaming almost all the time. It's pretty scary sometimes. I feel like I'm going crazy when it happens. I have actually dug my nails into my skin to feel it sometimes because the feeling that I'm dreaming is so intense that I feel like I can't even feel my body. I get very spacey too and can't concentrate on anything. It makes school very difficult sometimes. I feel empty emotionally when this happens or I'll just constantly cry.
Sometimes having something physically to hold helps but other than that nothing helps me. I also get very clingy and want to cuddle with people (it helps a little too) but I know I can't rely on others. I have been told to try breathing and concentrating on like my feet on the ground or the sight of something but then I start doubting that I'm even feeling or seeing it and I get scared which makes it worse.
Does anyone else experience this? Does anyone know what can help me? Or where can I post this where someone WOULD know?

Autumnal 01/25/2015

Ive had those feelings, long ago in the midst of a long depression. You're young and identifying with the depression and anxiety a lot. You most likely feel powerless to it. When your stronger and more experienced with it it wont feel as intense, it's kinda the growing pains of depression and anxiety...its very bleak though! The best thing for me was always therapy, you've gotta talk it all out...things will get better, you are posting in the right place xxx

kailajo318 01/26/2015

Yeah it's a very uncomfortable feeling. I go back to therapy again on the 3rd (my schedule has been too crazy to keep my appointments) and I see the psychiatrist in like a month, but she spends like literally less than 5 minutes with me and doesn't seem to really care. Thank you for your comment, hug, and understanding.

bluemood33 01/26/2015

I dissasociate too when I am depressed. Do not confuse it with DID or MPD. I will say I feel like a non-human too. It can be really awful when I let it go on too long and do not get help from a doctor soon enough.

debsue123 01/26/2015

I tend to break down and not talk or laugh with people. Right now I am crying all the time.
You are in the right place. Do you have a therapist? That usually helps alot but I haven't seen mine for about 1 month due to the fact that other dr appointments matter first. I see him on Wednesday this week. I hope it doesn't snow. I really need him right now.
You are always welcome on here. There are people here who can identify with you. I wish you the best of luck. deb

gramybear 01/26/2015

I think seeing the Therapist is even more important than the Psychiatrist. Like you said, they spend about 5 or 10 minutes with us if we are lucky but a Therapist can give you about 45 minutes. I think talking to a professional is very important at this point. Do you ever see a regular Medical Doctor so you can have him take some blood work? A good physical check up is important, even with depression. I've had depression since I was 7 years old so I don't recall what it was like at the beginning but I'm sure it was very scary. I'm so glad you are here to get support and opinions and what others have been through. I hope knowing that you are not alone helps! Hugs GB

ZAZAS 01/26/2015

Oh yes, I remember that feeling. I almost self harmed during that time just to feel anything. I mean ANYTHING. I felt like a ghost. I am glad you found the group. You doctor may be abe to recommend a good therapist or psy doctor.

SleepyWalrus 01/26/2015

I dissociate frequently as well. Unfortunately in my case it is the result of c-ptsd and is made worse by depression. My periods of dissociation are often the type that feel like flashbacks where I am reliving a painful event, except with frequently nightmarish scenarios that never really happened.

I can't afford a therapist or psychologist (spent a month or two pouring over listings of everyone of them within 100 miles of me in hopes of finding an appropriate one I can afford) so I had to turn to self help resources online.

What I was able to find often suggested practicing grounding techniques to pull myself out of moments of dissociation. It only seems to help a little for me, but it's better than nothing.

kailajo318 01/26/2015

Bluemood33 what do you tell your doctor? How long is too long? Debsue123 I do have a therapist and I see her next week since things have been so crazy lately. I hope your appointment goes well! And thank you. Gramybear the one good thing my psychiatrist did at my first meeting with her was order blood tests on me. The results came back all normal. Thank you (hugs). I'm sorry zazas and sleepy walrus that you guys relate. And sleepy walrus it hope that there is a way for you to get help soon. Thank you all for being so kind.

blackhawkdown 01/27/2015

Ive felt that way at times and what my therapist told me to do is try doing multiplication tables in my head. It works about 50% of the time. Its better than nothing I guess

danzer 01/27/2015

You definitely described how depression feels in many aspects. The key word I heard was emotions, and the need to express it. I am a person of emotions and learn to embrace it as well as release it as needed. Experiencing a lack of emotional support from parents and siblings led to a life of seeking acceptance from others so that there will be a possibility to simply experience my vulnerability without being judge. After self reflection, I realized there was still a need to depend on others for this release. Than I found artistic expression and that was the key to releasing emotions and developing a stronger sense of self. For me it was dance which lead to a professional career in the NBA as a power dancer. It's important to find your niche creatively and embrace it as a passion. Some people express their emotions through art, dance, cooking, singing, even interior design. Find your passion. Keep us updated and thanks for sharing. joanna j

gordos4 01/27/2015

kailajo, OMGosh, Im so sorry, you are SO young. I had the same feelings when I was a teenager too. Are you on any medication? I know that teenagers & young adults have to be very careful with that. I am old enough to be your mother, & if I were your mom, I would tell you to go to the doctor. If you go to an MD, they will likely refer you to a psychiatrist. There is no shame in that. My own son, who is 22, struggles with this too. It is a great sign of strength for you to want to be near people & hug them. That shows you are a compassionate, loving person. Sounds like you are uber-sensitive, which makes you want to hug, cuddle, etc..it is a GREAT trait to posses, but it can also be a hinderance at times. It makes you feel things, like emotions, more acutely than others. You have your whole life to look forward to. PLEASE don't suffer one more moment than you have to, go to the doctor. ((hugs))). I too, am uber-sensitive, I know how you feel.

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