Oh dear, not good. I don't know how much help I'll be but I will be on line for the next two hours if you need to talk.

Ill be online all day so message me as well if you need to talk <3

I'm new to the forum, I know how hard life can be and I'm sorry you feel the way you do.
I would like to suggest having a delicious warm cup of coffee or tea- or perhaps eating/drinking something sweet. They release the "happy chemical" in your brain. They aren't miracle workers, but I find That on occasion, they help me. I check the forum periodically so feel free to message me whenever if you're in the mood to talk.

Thank you for sharing. You are important, so any problem that you have is important. You can message me, if you want. It is good to vent things out in a productive way. Thank you and God Bless.

I really wanna thank you guys. Some support is what I need right now and that's what I feel I'm getting from you so thanks :)

I am thinking that you are a very good person. I am sorry you are having troubles. I am more than glad to help you feel better any way I can.

I'm sorry you had a bad week that left you feeling depressed. My heart goes out to you. You didn't mention if you are under a doctor's care for your BPD. If not, maybe it would be a good idea. Counseling might help as well. At the very least perhaps you could reach out to a close friend, relative, or someone at your local church. If you are considering suicide, please call the National Suicide Hotline. In the US, that number is 1-800-273-8255, Hang in there. I'll be praying for you.

I'm on medication yes, but can't see a psychiatrist and haven't been able for a year because I've been smoking weed to help with pain, which is illegal in my country, and that means I can't get any medical help except in getting "sober" as they say. Quit 2 days ago so it will be easier to get support but since I've so recently quit I'm still considered a drug addict and don't deserve help :/

Hugs as you deal with all of this. We are here for you.