Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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DepressedRecluse 09/03/2008

i had a real rough last night...i couldn't go to sleep...i lay there tossing and turning...and thinking of all the problems in my life....i laid there tossing and turning for a good 2 to 2-1/2 hours....man...i thought i was going crazy...crying...feeling like a failure...this sucks and i dont have the strength, to fix it...
i don't even think i have depression...

i am very insecure, and have absolutely no self esteem....i have actually failed at everything...in my life...i have a four year degree that took me about 7 years to get, but i don't have a job...i can't take care of the things my son needs, much less anything for me, i failed at my marriage, i'm failing at my current relationship and i haven't even gotten married this time yet...i failed at all my goals, past and present...i just cant muster up the strength to accomplish anything...nothing...i know what i have to do, but i don't have the strength to do any of it...i am worthless, i'm not worthy to burden my family or friend with my petty problems...

yall know what...i was raised to be a strong, self-sufficient woman...and now at 41...i haven't accomplished nothing...i'm worthless...i really don't know what to do...

deleted_user 09/03/2008

I bet your son doesn't think that. I bet he worships you.

deleted_user 09/03/2008

I know that feeling very well. I am 40 and feel the same.

The best I got is to handle things one at a time, I understand not having the motivation to do it.....you are a beautiful, valuable, and capable woman! You have a roar in there somewhere for dealing with life... {{{{{big hugs}}}}}}

meandthebeast 09/03/2008

Im so sorry that you are feeling this way. Our disease takes alot from us. Our self-esteem suffers the most I think.. Im here if you need someone to talk to.. You need to be there for your son.. Our children suffer the most through this.. hugs you

deleted_user 09/03/2008

You are going thrugh a rough patch, you will find the job that will get you back your self esteem..and stevey is right..I'll bet your son thinks you could walk on water. Don't be so hard on yourself..hugs xx

deleted_user 09/03/2008

Why do you think you aren't depressed? You sound depressed to me. And you sound like you're going through the mid-life thingy. I've done that a-ready. Oops. Still doing it. There it is again. I think most people do this. We look back and say, "What have I really done that I can be proud of? Sometimes we've survived and this is something we can be proud of, yeah? So, life begins at 40 and you still have a few seconds to get at where you want to be. Just one goal. Just one thing you want to do and go out and do that. Make it small and build from there. It doesn't have to be that way.

DepressedRecluse 09/03/2008

thanks guys....

i'm really feeling down right now....

but dkimball, you're reply brought a smile to my face...it just so happens that my son is into magic right now....and wants help with perfecting that walking on water trick (not that i claim to walk on water or anything, but there are special shoes to make it look possible)

thanks again...to all

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