Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I just feel so stuck. Like no one truly cares about me or how I feel. At least at home. All I am is someone who will do chores. I do everything and when I slack my mom gets mad ag me even though my 25 year old brother isn't doing ANYTHING. I have asked him nicely before but he just doesn't care. My mom hasn't gone to work in 2 years and we don't have a car and all I'm surrounded by everyday is stress and I can't take it anymore. I have to keep on a happy face for everyone. If I don't everything is worse. But nothing is changing for the better. Just worse. And I just don't want to go to school because I don't want to see people but I don't want to stay home. I just want to start walking and never come back. Just dissappear. But then no one would help mom because no one else cares. I want so many things that I wish and wish for. Things that my friends would consider normal. Like having a full family, a car, a roof with no holes, a family who doesn't have to pretend to be happy, to have a solid floor. There are so many problems that I can't do anything about but everyday they affect me and I just want to be part of a different family. Placed in a different house one without problems everywhere. I have asked the same thing for 8 years. To have a dad. I want someone to count on that will help mom and me. Who will love me. Who will try his hardest to fix the house. All I am to my father is a paycheck that is due every month that will go directly to rent. He never tried to be part of my life. He doesn't care. Just like my brother. Like everyone around me. No one cares not even me.
I am feeling very strongly for you. I have not had the exact same experiences that you had and are having, but I empathize greatly with the thoughts and feelings you are describing. I want you to know that even though it feels like no one cares, there truly are those out there who do. I care about you because I know the pain you are in. You are your own person, and you are far stronger than you may believe. I can see this just from your ability to reach out for support; that is a sign of major strength. And it is because of that strength that I know you are capable, resilient and beautiful. Hold onto this in times of crisis, and if you ever need anyone to talk with at any time, please do not hesitate to send me a message. I am here for you if you need me.
Birdie