It happened again. Raped again. I know now I cannot trust men. They only hurt me. I am done trying, done being strong, I just cant take it anymore. Ive taken too many shots to remain standing. Worst of all I am alone. I have no loving arms to run to, no crying shoulder to lean on, no strong arms to guard me as I rest. Ive been awake since yesterday afternoon beause I fear I cannot sleep. He will come back if I sleep. Im broken, and afraid. I cry but no tears fall Im so dehydrated, but I do not have a thirst. My belly rumbles though, it doesnt crave food. When I try to eat, it doesnt stay down. Im too disgusted to eat, with myself with him with the men who have hurt me. I just cant take this anymore. I cannot be strong in this time of pain, it's just wayyy too much.
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