I feel exactly the way you do right now. Feel free to message me if you like.

Medication might help your depression. And maybe anxiety. Can you go see a therapist
or your doctor? If your depression is from chemical imbalance you need meds to improve
the situation.

hi my name is cynthia and i know what you are going through. some day i wake up and im crying before i even get out of bed the thought of having to leave the house for an appointment or wherever it is i have to go make my anxiety go crazy. i used to be normal get up take my daughter to school get in my car wich i no longer have then go to work i was happy then but i lost it all my dfaughter has not lived with me for 4 years i cant work because of a knee injury im so depressed sice i lost my daughter i know what your going through im sorry you are having a hard time maybe i can help if you want to be friends i think ive been and seen it all i am alone 24 hours a day and it gets lonely sometimes but you sound like a str0ng person so i am here for you whenever you want to talk or need a friend i hope your day gets better and also to hear from you your friend cynthia

Thank you everyone, and yes I have seeked medical attention several times from my doctor, I have tried several medications to control both anxiety and depression. Nothing ever seems to help, besides making me feel sluggish on top of what sluggishness I already have. It's very frustrating..

If i had one wish for all my fellow depression-battling comrades it would be that they understand the link between brain, body, and mind.

Depression is in your brain/body. Your physical self. We feel sluggish, sleeping 14 hours a day is easy, we find no joy in things because our ability to feel it is compromised. Not in a "cheer up, things will get better" way, but in a "my right arm is broken and cannot move" way. The part of your brain that lets you feel good is in a brown-out.

The mind of the other hand is more abstract. Its job is to orient us (among other things) in the physical world. It is what helps us determine friend from foe, left from right, past from future. It interprets events and from those interpretations we make decisions about what to do next. In our case, it senses the depression in our body and for whatever reason interprets it as "doom and gloom". This is what other see and hear when they interact with us. And we, without understanding it, know that it isn't our attitude that is causing the problem

Hi. I am new to this as well. I work in a BH center so i can relate to how you have to keep a smile on your face (or in my case in your voice). But as I was reading your post it was as if i was reading about myself. I am also an artist, but have not been able to enjoy it as much due to chronic pain in my hands and fingers for starters. I I can also relate to the insecurities. Welcome to the team. i hope that you are able to find the support here that you need.

Welcome to this group. I can relate because I have struggled with depression and anxiety since I was a young child. Having no self esteem, I also was very insecure. Are you seeing a therapist or a counselor? I am available to talk if you want to talk with me. Hope you feel better.

I think you should try to figure out what your ideal job would be and see if you could work to get it, and get away from the family environment.

I am no expert ... but I spent decades in depression. You have 2 decades behind you, I have 70. I beat it about uh ... not exactly sure but within the last 5-10 years. Here is how I did it:

Got a 'good' evaluation and diagnosis. Got on medication(s) and took 'em as prescribed. Then ... I got immensely busy. I am retired now, but am busier than I ever was before. I inherited a pet ... who gives me more happiness than I can describe. Being so busy, I (finally) came out of it,

That is all I have for you. I think there is a relatively small percentage of people who are resistant to antidepressants, .. but that is ... again ... relatively small.

You say you have 'tried' 'em ... which tells me you have been to a doctor for the condition. Well, .. if meds are not helping, inform your doctor. Prescribing them is an art form, ... and I say the odds are you can be helped with them. You must have a doctor who takes your mental disposition seriously though. I fear many do not when I comes to this.

You are young ... I don't want you spending as long as I did to break out of this. Keep VERY busy ... don't care what it is ... work, volunteer somewhere ... keep busy for a good 12 hours a day or more, take the medications, .. rest, be busy, rest ... don't give yourself time to be depressed.

I don't know what other treatment you have had ... but a thorough physical often discovers easily correctable conditions that enhance or even cause depression. Hope you have had a good general physical evaluation lately.

That is all I have. I will tell you that you WILL be in my thoughts, and I am ONE (at least) who understands and care about you. So do all who attend this part of DS. You are not alone.

Sarah, I feel for you. Working with families can be hard esp. when you are not feeling good yourself. I do not know if u have been to a dr. or not but that is one thing you need to do and get some medication. Tell the dr. just what you are feeling. They will giv e you some medication to help. It is hard to find a dr. who takes insurance but I know in every county they have community resources to help. It also sounds like you mat need a little break while you are .getting better. Maybe you con talk to your boss and work something out. The old cliché u are nol good to anybody else if you don't take care of yourself is true. Let me know if this helps at all. My name is Susan.

Its hard to talk to people who aren't really going thru what some of us are going thru its not their fault people say its in your head, grow up,and wake up and such but i think we are stronger than they see us even though sometimes it feels like it's the end and you wont see the light at the end of the tunnel were still here and still fighting

Sarah.jessica,

Welcome to the group! We are glad you are here and openly and honestly sharing some of your thoughts. This is a place where you will find love, encouragement and support from likeminded people who are going through similar struggles.

You’re not alone. I think you already sensed that from seeing the comments above. Many of us have gone through and it’s not simple as, “Go back home, take a pill and give me a call in the morning” if it was that easy, then people wouldn’t struggle with it. Taking anti-depression pills takes awhile till you find the right one and it has a lot of side effects and that can be very frustrating as well.

I hear your struggle and frustration. Been there, done that, got the T-shirt. Actually, I feel like I’m going through that even this very moment. Feel free to message me. Love to talk more.

Praying for you.