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I am at 120% of my stress level, really sick some upper respitory thing, major appt tomorrow. Other stressors are work, family, home life. I was hospt for suicide 3 years ago. At that time I didn't think I was as bad as I was. Recently I have on two seperate occasions, suicide come to mind to end my trouble, once after a fun day at Sea World, another while driving. (No I was not thinking of going over the cliff) I will talk to the medical doctor and tell him this, that this illness that I have had for 2.5 months is a big stressor and we have to do something. But what else, I am trying to find a therapist, no luck yet. When do I hang it up and call the professionals to lock me up and in a sense beat me back to normal? I am a little scared, last time I had a support group to see what I didn't.
That is the most important 2nd step. Ask your doctor for a reference.
Just put one foot in front of the other.
Vent here..
find a suitable therapist by starting with a referral from your primary care doc. or call your local hospital and ask them who they would recommend.
Please keep writing. We are here for you.
Also, please remember that talking of suicide can trigger suicidal thoughts in others.
You've still got along way before any one would 'lock you up' you're not making plans or anything it's just a stress reaction. It's pretty much like someone else punching someone when their stressed for example.
I do the same thing. My psychologist told me that when these thoughts come I just have to use it as signal to stop and think, what is stressing me, what can I do to reduce this stress etc.
Just think of thoughts as chemical impulses floating around your brain. They're not definite, they don't hold the answer and they can lie to you.
Good luck. I hope you find a therapist soon, and that you get better!
You say you are sick---do you mean physically? That can certainly lead to depression in people who are vulnerable. Maybe you need tests, an antibiotic or something else. That's a long time to be sick--do you have allergies? I was just reading about suicidality in a cognitive behavioral book--It may just be a pattern of thinking that you have to break. If your brain is wired to "to do there" it might just be used to it---sort of like a pathway in the brain. Still you are under a lot of stress. Is there a reason that you are finding it so hard to find a therapist? Is there a hot or warm line in your area? I agree, let your doc know how concerned you are both physically and emotionally. He or she can refer you somewhere and hopefully ask for a speedy visit. Take care of yourself. Much Love. Mame