Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Happiness
Why is it that we have a hard time allowing ourselves to be happy. And when we notice it "creeping in", we try and push it away. You get that overwhelming feeling of "must not get to close" - "must keep shield up". Why is that? Does everyone act like that? Or am I the only one?
I wonder if it's my own defense mechanism, or if we all feel that way. Maybe because it's easier to keep our defenses in place, and there is no room for disappointment.
My "pal" asked me why I was just "ok" when clearly how I was interacting with him was far from "ok". As I had stated, some of us can put up a front, and let the world perceive we're "good", when reality we aren't. If I wore my heart on my sleeve how many people would want to be around me? And yes, I am depressed, and most want to shut the world out, and stay inside the safe shell we create. But, in reality it's a very lonely place. And one I don't enjoy very much.
Sometimes, one has to take a chance, and live "outside the bubble", and take a risk. Risks can be so scarEy, and one can get burned. I guess, it all depends on who/what the risk is, and if it's worth it in the end. He made a very good point - and something I say to others - You can't go through life thinking "what if" all the time. I mean, sure you can, but how fulfilling would it truly be? Sometimes you need to take a chance - and hope that you can overcome the fear. Right now, I feel like I'm willing to take the chance, as scarEy as it might be.
Unfortunately, we don't have a crystal ball and can't know the outcome until we've reached our destination. I guess instead of focusing on the final destination, we need to enjoy the ride along the way.
Why is it that we have a hard time allowing ourselves to be happy. And when we notice it "creeping in", we try and push it away. You get that overwhelming feeling of "must not get to close" - "must keep shield up". Why is that? Does everyone act like that? Or am I the only one?
I wonder if it's my own defense mechanism, or if we all feel that way. Maybe because it's easier to keep our defenses in place, and there is no room for disappointment.
My "pal" asked me why I was just "ok" when clearly how I was interacting with him was far from "ok". As I had stated, some of us can put up a front, and let the world perceive we're "good", when reality we aren't. If I wore my heart on my sleeve how many people would want to be around me? And yes, I am depressed, and most want to shut the world out, and stay inside the safe shell we create. But, in reality it's a very lonely place. And one I don't enjoy very much.
Sometimes, one has to take a chance, and live "outside the bubble", and take a risk. Risks can be so scarEy, and one can get burned. I guess, it all depends on who/what the risk is, and if it's worth it in the end. He made a very good point - and something I say to others - You can't go through life thinking "what if" all the time. I mean, sure you can, but how fulfilling would it truly be? Sometimes you need to take a chance - and hope that you can overcome the fear. Right now, I feel like I'm willing to take the chance, as scarEy as it might be.
Unfortunately, we don't have a crystal ball and can't know the outcome until we've reached our destination. I guess instead of focusing on the final destination, we need to enjoy the ride along the way.
My only problem now is finding out who I am sometimes I'm that good at putting on a front I don't even notice I'm doing it, but once out of sight the depression encloses round me. Please burst that bubble and never look back, whats the point after all history is only history!
I envy people who have "that". I'm inching closer to 40 (ugh! LOL) and still have never experienced that. Don't know if I ever will but I guess instead of denying myself that - I should allow it to possibly come in.
Surrounding me
going down on me
spilling over the brim...
waves of regret and waves of joy-
I reached out to the one I try to destroy-
but you...you were waiting for the end of the world." From a song by U-2 The verse came to mind and just wanted to share from what I've read.
Dont wait till the end of the world SeekingKnowledge.
STORM...
I know he wants to have fun but the moment he starts to, all the negative thoughts start up. He doesn't think he deserves anything but pain and sadness but he does...and so do you. You deserve to be happy and allow yourself to take the risk and like u said, enjoy the ride.