I have the same thing. I usually yell back at myself in my head and say "STOP!!!" to try and stop the tantrum. Sometimes that works. I'm sorry you have this too and that it frightens you. I'm sending you some gentle hugs.

Having a tantrum in your mind, rather than lashing out - cuts way back
on the number of people not speaking to you :)

People get passive-aggressive with their gift- gving or they don't have the
same style... it can be disappointing, especially when you think of all the
things people get that they don't want at all - what a waste of money.
You could probably feed all the hungry people in the world from the waste from one American Christmas. When I could affordt it, I used to plan a post-Christmas shopping trip and treat myself to some 60 - 70% off retail therapy. I miss that!

I looked up a few things because of your interesting post and shared
the links below.



Revenge is Good for You
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/significant-results/201106/revenge-is-good-you-part-1

The Anger Thermostat - What's the Temperature of Your Upset?

http://www.psychologytoday.com/collections/201401/december-29-january-4?tr=HomeColSmallImg

Well my head gets very loud I will have a hole conversation and fight with the person. With both sides them speaking and me speaking Just before I go visit them .....it is so wearied thought I was the only one that did that...I have always done that and the more depressed I get the louder it gets ....it is not something I like to advertise lol

thank you, I feel better knowing im not the only one.

roll up your windows, find a spot away from traffic and have a tantrum. Not while driving but stationary.

I knew there were other people who had to have a similar difficulty as I do, but I really wasn't expecting to see a thread on it. Soooo glad you brought it up.

I do that when I'm hypomanic about really stupid stuff, i.e. my stepdaughter getting "Irish butter" to try and I'm screaming in my head...it's butter! WTH. Is what I pick not good enough for you? Is what I get not expensive enough? Etc.

I also have difficulty cooking. If I have to cook, I will scream and scream in my head "I can't do it! I don't wanna do it!" But for me, with the cooking, it never goes away and I end up destroying everything in the kitchen (haven't done that in years) or, more commonly, curling into a ball on the floor and sobbing.

So...yeah. I do that, too, and am glad I'm not alone!

Hugz!

thank u all. and that's a good idea with the car. Or even when no one is home, I bang my fists on the bed and and cry loud. I wind up getting it all out, then of course when people come home im "normal". But it helps

I am really glad to know that I am not the only person that this type thing happens too. I wish sometimes that I could scream until I have no voice left. Thank you for letting me see I am not the only one.

Weird timing for this post. I am used to imagining terribly sad situations, that will never happen, and making myself cry. Today, I'm for the first time aware of, making myself angry over nothing and like you said, holding the battle in my head, And it makes no sense to me. #1, I don't have anything to be angry over and #2, I live alone. I could yell and scream all I want and no one would know. Although for some reason I can't let myself scream. I've tried it.
Thanks for posting as today, as I said is the first time I've experienced this,

I just give a good AAAAhhh. I used to try to avoid those accidental blurts of a bad word, quick and with nice force... but now I find that no other words cut it and it actually works to get that nasty little thought out of the way after I've bashed my foot or hand on something or am frustrated over something. I try to make it quick and make my apologies to any witnesses but basically it doesn't bother anyone but the dog.