Hi everyone Im ashamed and depressed this morning. I stil have not gone to sleep this morning. i had a seizre yesterday and they are the worst sometimes painful if i hurt myself and so confusing afterwards. The worst is they are embarassing. People think you are crazy or drunk. My doctor wants to see me in january that is the earliest he can see me. With all the migraines and this seizure I have to go. I just want to cry but this can still be the after effects of the seizure. SOmetimes Im tired and anxious. I take ativan but I do not currently have any until the end of the week. I tried knitting and taking a bath and watching a movie before I got on here. I didnt want to worry anyone. I am safe. My husband is home today and he is a paramedic. So if I need to go to the hospital he can take me. I just get so scared afterwards and my family back home ( dad and sisters) get so angry. I was newly diagnosed this year and had them for two years ever since I got off of pain medication that I took for two years for pelvic congection syndrome. JUst everything is so messed up in my life right now. I am back to work finally in my life everything is normal routine but when this happens its like my body tenses up and I cannot deal with anything. I wish I had more support. SOmetimes IM so out of it I dont know hat to do, when I need to go to the hospital ugh I just want to put my head on desk and say I cant do this. get through today and tomorrow will be better right. Thanks for letting me vent.

Meagan