You are mistaken.

God does not want you to die. The mission you speak of is in your mind.

God does not forsake us, we forsake ourselves. Look deep within yourself, you'll see the strength you were born with to live out this life. Life is incredibly difficult. But worth the fight. When you find yourself in the dark, don't look for the light. Rather, be the light. Stay strong and be kind to yourself. No matter what life has to throw at you, take the hits and keep moving forward. Your life is worth it. Lots of peace and love.

"No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path." ~ Buddha

Roxie

Remember, each life is different in that we all have the power to decide how we live it....While your depression is very real and you feel it's power of the lies it feeds you, it cannot change your own personal truth. And only you know what that is.
Emotional death is an immanent part of continued living. But how do we define what life is? Perhaps the answers lay within the confines of the imprint of love each of us have. When we love, and draw ourselves to love and those likeable to it. We are more able to see it, feel it and receive it. You ARE LOVED. Look for it.... even if it's just peering right outside of your window. Look for it.

I would like to echo the first sentence Roxie said.

I wish that God would snap his/her fingers and make all our lives better. But I know it does not work that way. I pray for the wisdom to hear God's words and the strength to follow them.

You would have better luck believing in harry potter than in "god" So many blind people :(

God has not forsaken you. Your mission is to find your purpose or reason to live. Maybe you haven't found that,yet.

I believe in god but ensam made me laugh
"Harry Potter be with you"
"Harry Potter Damn you"

please dont think that! let me help you! read my story i have over come a a lot of things even thinking about suicide! there is hope!

http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Teen_Anxiety/forum/14328140-teen-anxiety-story-help-read

please dont think that! let me help you! read my story i have over come a a lot of things even thinking about suicide! there is hope!

http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Teen_Anxiety/forum/14328140-teen-anxiety-story-help-read

please dont think that! let me help you! read my story i have over come a a lot of things even thinking about suicide! there is hope!

http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Teen_Anxiety/forum/14328140-teen-anxiety-story-help-read

Sometimes I wonder if I am foresaken GOD???

Have you ever heard of the Footsteps poem? It's rather long so I won't quote it here, but it ends with God saying that when there were only one set of footprints, at the most difficult parts of the author's life, that was when God carried the author. God doesn't forsake us, he simply allows us to live our lives according to free will.

Annie

My own situation bears a strong resemblance to the things you are stuggling with....I do understand your desire...you want the pain to end, the situation to improve....I don't think you want your actual life to end...

Were you able to go inpatient or get therapy via a clinic (some offer free or services on a sliding scale fee)?

Your environment is hardly condusive to a good state of mind. I think there would be resources reasonably close to where you live that would help you in more ways than one.

Perhaps if you can find a way to leave this "mess"....your spirit and soul will be lifted.

Here is the poem..."Footprints" in case you've never seen it...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s5tFufCYmg8

I feel deep down inside that God has something great for me to do. Right now God is carrying me it hte sand. Before I was born my mother had a dream. In that dream Jesus Christ was carrying a baby. She told me before she died that Jesus Christ handed this baby to her and said"This one is speacial take good care of him" After I was born my mother was in a mental hospital for a while. It was the 60`s and they treated her with shock treatments. At the begining of my life I missed out on the mother baby bonding expierence. In 2005 my mental illness allowed God to speak to me. My brain could not handle it. My mania became schizoeffective. It was like I was on LSD for a week or so.At the time God taught me how he created the planet earth. So I spent a week on redesigning the earth. I f God really did speak to me my brain could not handle it. Since that experience in 2007 I don`t feel much passed 2012. I don`t think the world will end but I think something big is gonna happen. Possibly the coming of the Messiah?

I'm sorry for what happened with your mother....that was "standard" treatment at the time:(:( For too many people, it just made things
even worse:(:(

Perhaps your "something big" is in fact a better life for yourself.