Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
As some recommended I talked to my doctor about my black outs. After walking him through the events of the night before I woke up with broken glass in my fist, he told me that it seemed to him like a psychotic break caused by (maybe) PTSD.
Although I'm always slightly unwilling to recall past events, I told him of the night I nearly killed my father after he tried to kill my sister. He told me that I should go through extensive therapy and maybe be admited into a psychiatric hospital... This made me think a lot about myself as a person... What I've done untill now seemed very meaningless... And I thought that I was like this because that was who I was... But now... Maybe I'm not to blame, maybe my father fucked me up so much I've become broken...
I honestly never knew exactly what relief felt like... And maybe now I have a way out...
Although I'm always slightly unwilling to recall past events, I told him of the night I nearly killed my father after he tried to kill my sister. He told me that I should go through extensive therapy and maybe be admited into a psychiatric hospital... This made me think a lot about myself as a person... What I've done untill now seemed very meaningless... And I thought that I was like this because that was who I was... But now... Maybe I'm not to blame, maybe my father fucked me up so much I've become broken...
I honestly never knew exactly what relief felt like... And maybe now I have a way out...
That is huge.
And I'm glad it brought you some mental relief.
Don't let anyone have the ability to break you....your not broken..don't think negative thoughts....focus on you are STRONG because you are fighting your way thru this and trying to help yourself even when it becomes extremely difficult.