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Im new. I had enough of this world. I have had enough of nightmares and not being able to live with guilt of what i have done.
I dropped out of php program. Have done it so many times. I could teach it.
Im getting stuff ready that i want given to others. Problem is i cant trust person to do it. I cant think of anyone that would do that for me. I have talked to this person to not blame the person i want him to give the stuff to. But i know he does blame her and will be cruel and blame her for my death. I cant discuss it with person. He will not change his mind. No matter what i say. Then he gets suspicious that im out to hurt myself. I have to be careful what i say.
If i left stamped envelopes addressed to people would police mail it. I really want to say things. So people know why i had to leave this world and who is to blame.
I want to leave on my favorite day. So i can think happy thoughts as my last.
I dropped out of php program. Have done it so many times. I could teach it.
Im getting stuff ready that i want given to others. Problem is i cant trust person to do it. I cant think of anyone that would do that for me. I have talked to this person to not blame the person i want him to give the stuff to. But i know he does blame her and will be cruel and blame her for my death. I cant discuss it with person. He will not change his mind. No matter what i say. Then he gets suspicious that im out to hurt myself. I have to be careful what i say.
If i left stamped envelopes addressed to people would police mail it. I really want to say things. So people know why i had to leave this world and who is to blame.
I want to leave on my favorite day. So i can think happy thoughts as my last.
I am responsible for my own actions. I couldn't
care less what happens to my stuff. It's just stuff.
Please do not hurt yourselves. It isn't worth it. And yes people will notice
You could mail them yourself, but then since a lot of suicide attempts fail, you would be confronted with explaining the content of the letters to the people you sent them to.
Might I suggest you edit the letters into a plea for help and then send them, or call your friends and read them to them. That might help you get conversations going. But if they are 'I hate you because' or 'you ignored me and now ... ' letters odds are that they will only be met with resistence.
A better method would be to get therapy and take those letters with you. Odds are that those letters would be a very good starting point to get into the issues that you have.
Gentle hugs
I left letters and tried to bequeath things before my attempts. I cannot believe I survived. Now I am dealing with the repercussions, atop all the other problems I was facing.
You do not have to take your own life. There are always other options, even if you do not see them.
(((hugs)))
I know exactly what are the counselors have to say. When they say dumb shit. Why would i want to talk to them.