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I really and truly want to severely maim my ex right now... I have soooo much shit I need to get done for tomorrow and I can't concentrate at all!! I still haven't finished reading the book I need to have read before I can even start writing the paper I have due tomorrow afternoon.. and it's 8:30pm here already.... looks like I'll be up all night now!! I should have had this finished by now.. but I couldn't concentrate all day yesterday because I couldn't get the message he sent me out of my head... couldn't push away all the thoughts that finally he was getting better and finally we were going to make amends and finally put the past behind us.. and then today, after I got his reply to my acceptance of his "apology" my heart was for the eight millionth time since I met him, torn out, tossed in a blender and shit on all over again... I haven't been able to concentrate all day because I am just so angry at him!! He KNOWS I am in school and that this time of year I have more than enough stress to deal with and he decides, out of the blue, after a fucking year and a half, to send me a bullshit apology which he follows up with more of his cruelty when all I did was respond to his "apology" with acceptance and forgiveness?! The goddamn nerve of him!! He is very very lucky that neither I nor my brother know where he lives........ and lucky that I haven't told my brother that he contacted me again...
Take some time to try this (it can help re-direct your energies productively)
-Lay down perfectly flat in a very comfortable, darkened room. Close your eyes.
-Just breathe in and out, consciously and deeply. Get your BP down.
-Start to list GOOD things---they can be in any category you like---GOOD things about yourself can give you the biggest boost.
-List three, then five, then ten things. Don't be in a hurry, be honest about it.
By the time you get to about ten, you'll find it's easier, AND you will feel calmer and better able to focus ON WHAT YOU WANT to get done tonight.
That's when you can give yourself permission to just let him go for a few hours/ until after school/ next week, whenever.
Big calming hugs and a nice something hot and soothing to drink...
Maybe you need to put on your mental armour?
He's an adult. Helping him should not mean you have to jeopardize your chances in school.
Oh and SuyB you can definitely be a part of my maimin' posse!
SBOOM, I'm glad that you realize you deserve better. You are worthy of finding true love. This jerk doesn't know what love is all about, he thinks with his penis because he has nothing between his ears. Men like him has no respect for women and uses them whenever he gets a chance. Stay as far away from him as possible, and if you find out he's with another girl, it's your duty as a woman to warn her of his character. Without putting yourself in contact with him.
HUGS to you, for dropping the jerk