Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I have been clinically depressed for thirty years now. I didn't have treatment until about 19 years ago. I didn't know I was 'depressed' until then. I have periods of happiness, calmness, rationalness. But, today I am sharing my pain because today (and the last three weeks) have been bad. I have rarely got any privacy to do this. This post may even be cut short.
Today is bad. Really bad. Today I visualize myself leaving my body and seeing my spirit fly over the trees and away. I think about how peaceful the coffin and grave must be. I look pretty when I'm flying away, with long curly hair and a healthy-looking body. No more pain, mental or physical.
I know it will pass. This has been a really long period of abject depression...three weeks. I've been getting my dosage of cymbalta upped for months...it works for a while. I cycled thru most antidepressants. I see a VA hospital psych every two or three months. I don't get therapy anymore. I don't have anyone reliable to babysit
Today is bad. Really bad. Today I visualize myself leaving my body and seeing my spirit fly over the trees and away. I think about how peaceful the coffin and grave must be. I look pretty when I'm flying away, with long curly hair and a healthy-looking body. No more pain, mental or physical.
I know it will pass. This has been a really long period of abject depression...three weeks. I've been getting my dosage of cymbalta upped for months...it works for a while. I cycled thru most antidepressants. I see a VA hospital psych every two or three months. I don't get therapy anymore. I don't have anyone reliable to babysit
this is just a stage...maybe even a stage before the best time of your life...who knows. You can get though this
Take care
I'm hardly on the crisis post. Glad I'm here tonight.
You have children? Oh please, that med might be messing you up, can you call the dr or an emergency phone line? Make sure those thoughts stop.
Life can be really really bad. I wanted to die many times, spent my life in depression, and you know I'm so glad I didn't kill myself. I have grandchildren now and it's wonderful to be the "family matriarch".
Your dr who prescribes your meds would want to know how you feel and would instruct you what to do.
Suicide isn't pretty floating up in clouds. The grave is cold and permanent. There is no one to help with kids while you get this straightened out?
I don't know you and all of your pains. I know how bad depression hurts. When we are overwhelmed with wanting to die, to be free, we have to trust and let others think and help us. Sunnycat and I are worried. She's right. You may start having a good stretch of time.
Big Bear Hugs, Snail
I hope your medicine and positive thoughts and maybe some good luck makes you feel like part of the world again. Hope this passes and good things are to come. Hug.