Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hi everyone! I have avoided joining this group for a long time because I thought it would be depressing. lol Ironic, huh? Sometimes, I can make light of my depression. I've battled it my entire life. The scary part is, I have seriously contemplated suicide three times: once at around 15, once at around 23 and once at around 62. Yep, I'm an oldie but goody! I have never gone to a shrink about it because I tend to to snap out of it every time on my own, eventually. I really do not want to be on any kind of drugs for it either, that's for sure. Also ironic is that I studied psychology in college because I found all things of the psyche to be fascinating. I still do. I tend to believe that my depression has everything to do with my thoughts, not some chemical imbalance. If I ever do go to a shrink it will be a cognitive therapist. But, if I were completely truthful, there may be some heredity involved as well. I noticed that my father was quite depressed for many years, but his life sucked in a lot of ways.
Anyway, I just wanted to say hi and remind everyone that having something to look forward to helps, and exploring new things helps too. Even if you don't feel like it at first... act as though you do, and you may be surprised. Also, don't discount the little joyful moments in life, short as they may be. I lost my husband, my mom, and my sister all within five years. That nearly destroyed me. But, I told myself to just keep breathing in and out, and that is why I am still here today (and not all days are bad).
As for my worst episodes, I feel trapped - like I need to run away and escape (again). I feel completely isolated like nobody in the entire world could possibly know what I'm going through. The worst thing I feel is un-needed. I'm at an age now where my kids and grandkids are all grown up living their own lives and I really am not needed by anyone anymore. If I didn't have to work full time, I would get a dog because I love dogs, but I just can't bring myself to keep a dog locked up in a house for 10 hours a day while I am gone. It just wouldn't be fair to any animal to do that. (I live in an area that is too hot in the summer and too cold in the winter to leave a dog outside.)
Anyway, just wanted to let you know I stopped by. I'm a newbie here, but certainly no newbie to depression.
You know I don't miss the children BUT I do have their residuals as in dogs and cats...the horsie is mine though. What can I say I am a suker for a sob story and I purchased a horse, again.
This place seems like it might have picked up a bit as it used to be a clakety clack hen house of female hormones and then they all got a booger up their butts and vamoosed to FacePlant and after that you could hear the paint dry here, I do believe some of it dried so hard I heard it actually crack, chip and bounce on the floor. Get this: The mad scientist's reported it as gravity waves. Oh come on that's funny.
well Troop, welcome
Welcome to the group! Thank you for sharing this and I’m sorry for all you are going through. I hope this forum will be a blessing to you.
Please stay strong, we are all here for you.
May God's peace and comfort be upon you.
My wife and I are still in the home where our kids grew up. When I'm alone in the house I look for any reason to get out. The silence hurts.
It's said time heals all wounds, maybe so. Although, I will always have an emptiness missing the past when my children were young and home. They were my purpose.
I wish you the best in your journey and again thank you for your post letting me know that I'm not alone in how I feel this stage of my life.