i think i am finally getting back to being me- what does that mean- well it means - i'm not obsessed with that idiot formerly known as Matt- lol ... he is out of sight and out of mind... i am Brandi again - the rocknmetalchic- who is funny, caring, optimistic, happy,and can always brighten up someone's day ... i have written a journal entry and took out my aggressions that way and i think it makes sense but who really knows?.. all i know is i can see sunlight and not always look for rain , and the black hole is becoming alittle farther in the distance everyday - i am healing inside and out and hopefully becoming a better person for it... so i can't fix what has happened in the past year and a half all i can do is fix the present and future.... and realizing that just me is enough has taken a really long time- but i think is a major breakthrough for me and wanted to share- i couldn't have done it without u all - much luv and big hugs !
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