I wrote a long email to a new friend to answer some questions she asked. It was mostly upbeat, then I started talking about relationships because she asked about the people in my life and I realised I was uncomfortable. I told her so, said I was surprised by my own reaction. It was only a small sentence in a long letter. Then she sent me an angry rant about how I was defensive even though she didn't ask for me to talk about things that made me uncomfortable, that obviously if I wrote it then I wanted to talk about it. It was like a slap. I wrote about a lot of things that still bring me some happiness and she took an introspective comment out of it, ignored the rest. 

And here comes the worst. I felt she was wrong, but I felt crushed and guilty to my core for making her angry, so I apologised as profusely as I could. Then she wrote back that I was dishonest by being nice, and that people like me who are too nice deserve to get to the finish line last, and that I should stop being nice to her if I only do it to gain support on social media. And I was like, why did I deserve this? I was friendly and happy to get to know a new person, who the hell cares about SM, she started commenting on my pictures unprompted, the she turns it around saying I don't care about her? Even worse, she knows how bad off I am and still pulls this shit.

And the bottom line of this all: I'm still feeling worthless and guilty, I apologised to her again, and I don't know how to make it better. I feel so, so guilty, even though I know I should stand up for myself instead. I want to keep apologising until she says she forgives me, although I don't know what I did wrong.

Has this ever happened to anyone else?