I am so sorry you are having so much pain. I also have experienced chronic pain but that was several years ago. I do understand the frustration and depression and anger and all the other emotions it causes one to feel. I lived them. Noone can imagine unless they themselves have lived it. So believe me-I do understand. Do you have family you can talk to? If not do you have a church you attend? Even if you don't attend, you can contact any pastor at any church and I know they will help you. Or there are so many support groups for depression (mental health), pain, just about anything. I'm sure your doctor's office can steer you in the right direction on where to find some help. You really do sound depressed and need to talk to someone. You certainly do have good reason to feel this way. I hope you seek out some help. It can only help-it sure can't hurt. God bless. There are also other support groups on here-have you looked into those?

I'm so sorry you're in such pain - imo nothing compares to back pain.
When I had it, for several weeks following surgery, an "alternative"
chiropractor (no crunching or rough adjustments) used the pen-like
device and I got some immediate relief. Each situation is different.

I remember how the pain pills did nothing - and they were really potent pills.

I very much hope you find relief soon.

You can come here and share how you honestly feel. People here do understand. I have more than enough pain in my life with the depression----I can't imagine adding back pain to it. I hope you can find some relief soon.