Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hi, I'm new here. I was diagnosed with clinical depression, generalized anxiety and social anxiety disorders 30 years ago. My depression goes back much further though. My first suicide attempt was when I was in the first grade, so I would say it has been part of me forever.
During the past 3 years I have been battling various health issues but being poor I have been jerked around by doctors, hospitals and insurances (or lack of). I know I have a heart condition but do not know how severe yet. The doctors I get don't seem to care about diagnosing me and I am so tired of feeling sick. I have been told a wide variety of things i have and "may" have from non-drug or alcohol related liver damage, arrhythmia, left bundle branch block and svt in my heart, possible sjogren's syndrome, confusion, and the list goes on.
On top of feeling tired and sick constantly, I am directly in the middle of the 6th anniversary of my son's death august 18 and his 30th birthday on september 4th. I have 8 siblings and not one seems to care whether i am sick or sad. I have no friends to lean on because I seem to attract people who like to take advantage of my fear of upsetting people. I don't know where to turn.
During the past 3 years I have been battling various health issues but being poor I have been jerked around by doctors, hospitals and insurances (or lack of). I know I have a heart condition but do not know how severe yet. The doctors I get don't seem to care about diagnosing me and I am so tired of feeling sick. I have been told a wide variety of things i have and "may" have from non-drug or alcohol related liver damage, arrhythmia, left bundle branch block and svt in my heart, possible sjogren's syndrome, confusion, and the list goes on.
On top of feeling tired and sick constantly, I am directly in the middle of the 6th anniversary of my son's death august 18 and his 30th birthday on september 4th. I have 8 siblings and not one seems to care whether i am sick or sad. I have no friends to lean on because I seem to attract people who like to take advantage of my fear of upsetting people. I don't know where to turn.
I am so sorry you felt suicidal at all, let alone at such a young age. I also have depression and the same anxiety disorders as you, along with other stuff. Your physical health issues would cause anyone anxiety and depression. Perhaps you can give yourself some credit for handling them as well as you have. You are not alone in having problems finding good, affordable health care in today's world, if that's any consolation.
I just googled support groups for parents who lost a child, and many links come up. There may be such a support group near where you live, and perhaps you can make some good friends who understand and appreciate you. I have never lost a child, but I know it is considered one of the hardest types of grief to have to deal with. No one in my family "gets" me so I just stay away from them at this point. If you can find even one true friend it can make such a difference.
My meds and talk therapy help me, as does prayer.
I hope you have a good day, and find the emotional support and medical care you need.