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psyko
psyko
My mood has been going up and down a lot, but what really bothers me is my inability to show any emotion besides anger and rage. I'm tired of being this way and the urge to self-harm is getting overwhelming. I don't know how much I can take before I do start cutting again.

I'm debating whether or not I should go for inpatient treatment, but our new insurance won't take affect till October.
zoidberg
zoidberg
I hate to see you hurt yourself in anyway so is there anyone you can talk to about how you are feeling? Someone from DS or a professional of some sort? Sending hugs your way.
koolman
koolman
"my inability to show any emotion besides anger and rage."

Why is that? Avoiding pain and tears?
psyko
psyko
koolman: I don't know why I can only express rage or anger. Maybe they're the easiest to show. I feel embarrassed and weak when I do.
gramybear
gramybear
All that anger you are carrying around is the product of a great deal of hurt. Are you able to talk about what is hurting you so badly? Please let us know how we can help, okay? I am always here to talk to, just send me a message. Many hugs Gramybear
psyko
psyko
I guess all the anger and hurt comes from being bullied from "friends" and I haven't forgotten all the hurt and pain they caused...it wasn't just them it was some teachers also, so I ended up switching schools. Last year my grandpa died, and I feel guilty about it.

I just want to feel some relief from all this anger. I'm not sure whether or not I can go on like this for much longer. I feel alone, and afraid to show how I really feel because I don't want to hurt anyone