Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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pwashington28 05/15/2016

I have not been on in a long time, But I am back. I am feeling so lost lately. I feel like I can't trust anyone around me. I am not worthy of honesty and respect by anyone. I try to get together with friends, just to realize that I don't have any. My family seems to just tolerate me. Why am I really here? I mean is there really a purpose in my life? The only one I see is to be the pin board for everyone around. Pin the blame on me. Everything that goes wrong is my fault. If my children do wrong, it's my fault. My life is falling apart around me and I have no one to blame but myself. If everything happens for a reason, then I would rather be dead than keep feeling like this.

lillianb3 05/15/2016

I understand your feelings. I was there just 3 weeks ago. I had my meds re-evaluated and some changes made. It is like night and day for me. Have your meds been checked lately? Have you told your doctor/therapist how you are feeling?
I just ask because of the huge difference it made for me.
The time of night you posted is the worst time of night for me. Nothing on TV, nothing to distract myself. That is always when the beast of dep takes over and it is all black.
I hope for you that you get good sleep and wake refreshed.

Hugs and prayers

L

pwashington28 05/15/2016

I am still waiting for my appointment with my psychiatrist. It's not until next month. My PCP will not adjust my meds until I go to psych. Thank you.

enigmaticloner 05/15/2016

I feel you on that, I haven't posted much on here lately either, but my depression sure hasn't gone away. I'm still feeling alone and hopeless pretty often, I question my own purpose. I feel like a failure and yet it's because of things I was born with which are out of my control, it's ridiculous.

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