Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Soo 10/26/2018

Hi everyone ,

Im not really sure where to start. I feel like im drowning and barely keeping afloat in life. I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for over 15 years and sometimes it feels like I will never be happy , like the happy child I was has been killed off and replaced by an angry grumpy tired stranger . I have an amazing husband but I feel so detached and strange and unconnected to him almost all the time , which makes me feel ever worse . I am a hopeless romantic and having this weird distant feeling breaks my heart . We have a wonderful son together who I love with all my heart but I dont want him growing up seeing a sad and distant mom and then turning into an uhappy person himself . The last few days have been really rough , I believe I've had a trigger that is bringing up a lot of negative self thinking and I dont know where to go or what to do from here . Im exhausted and so over living life feeling like an empty struggling shell . I can't stop myself from randomly crying , and a big part of me just wants to shut myself away from all people and be left alone .

MadDog22 10/26/2018

That NEGATIVE THINKING is a constant battle for me too.

You just have to talk against it, not listen to it -- hard things for depressives to do, but we HAVE TO, Soo, or the negativity will swamp us.

patti22 10/26/2018

How old is your baby? As much as we love our kids sometimes we need a break away from them. Are you able to get out of the house once a week or so and have your own life?

jannytheresa 10/26/2018

I can completely relate to what you're saying. In my opinion, depression is often
biochemical. That said, it can be hard to fix things immediately and sometimes options are limited.
I have a great husband and realize this more so when I'm really depressed and having trouble just functioning. I have an adult son who lives at home and I also worry about the impact that all of this is having on him.
I think you need to really take care of yourself above all. I find myself crying when
I remember all of the times that I was really happy. I was looking at pictures yesterday and I was genuinely smiling in them.
Let's hold onto hope for each other. Talk to your husband and let him know
that this is not about him or your child, but a real illness.
Thinking of you.

bethelbee 10/27/2018

I'm sorry you are going through this! I can totally relate to how you're feeling. I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for several decades. Used to be a bubbly and happy person but haven't been in several months. I also feel like a shell of who I was. I get easily agitated and frequently cry. A lot of it stems from not feeling physically well for months and I'm so frustrated. Hope you get the support you need!
Sending hugs...

LaPetiteGen 10/28/2018

Oh love, feeling hopeless is such a terribly lonely feeling! It sounds like you know in your heart you have wonderful people around you that love and need you. Please don't give up hope. We trust in every new day and that with each new day there is hope that something can be different. Have you considered counseling? Talked with your doctor about medication? I know that there isn't a magic pill out there but getting to the root of what is wrong is the first step- counseling if the root is some type of past pain or trauma or medical doctors in case there is medical or hormonal issue. Please consider getting help! You matter, you are worthy and God loves you more than you could ever fathom!

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