why were you fired?

Depression is such a hard disease to live with as those who have never gone thru it will never completely understand. Keep trying belle, things will get better.

I guess you have to figure out the reasons as to why you were fired and try harder at your next job to not allow these reasons to interfere. As for your husband - since you have the extra time to make the appointment, why don't you? Take the intiative!

I have felt as you do for aslong as I can remember.
I have had ( and been fired from ) more jobs than I can even remember, I honestly gave each job I ever worked 100% of my ability, but alas it was never enough.
I do not know I had atleast 35 jobs from age of 16 up to age 29 or so, when I admit I *gave up* ( please do not, it does not help ) since then I have merely existed.
I doubt your family sees you as a failure, my parents see themselves as failures though I try and convince them that my own actions led me where I am, my own inmaturity led me where I am now, afterall I am just a child in a mans body, so says my endocrinologist.
Best bet would be to keep trying, I gave up like you want to do, and it was the worst decision I had ever made.
I say make the appointment yourself, I went down that raod with my wife and I found that I had to do it on my own because she is always to busy to do that.
Just try and try hard to remain positive, cannot be any worse then living the negitive self pity life that I have now for the last 7 years.

I also have lost several jobs. I got the job of my dreams only to realize I lacked the computer skills necessary for that kind of work. I did have a good cry and I reminisce or feel bad about it all over again.

I told myself that I was allowed to lose that job because I have a different skill set and, frankly, I wasn't that interested in all that computer stuff.

My depression has caused me to act out at other times, and who wants an employee how is not in control.

You should keep trying, though. It is good to keep busy and be useful. I bet there were times that you did feel successful.

I feel you on your spouse not understanding. I felt that my wife did not understand me and thought that she would help me but the same thing happened...She didn't do any foot work. Sometimes you have to do it for them, it will show him that you are in a time of need and you WANT him to understand.

I am so in your shoes. It has taken me years to figure out how all my problems have added up, and what they are. It is hard to explain, when you appear relatively normal to most people, why you are unable to work. If they had wheel chairs for our brains, maybe it would be more understandable!!!!
I have had to slowly adjust to not being able to work, and still in the process of trying to get SSI. My new doctor, who actually believes what I am saying (as opposed to the last one, who did not seem to) is doing what he can to help me qualify. It is almost scary, as when I met resistance with the other Dr., I also thought maybe I was just kidding myself. Now I have the opposite problem - I wish I was.
Finding productive things to do - like offer hope and suggestions on this site - is very helpful.