Where to start..... Been feeling like a failure for a long while now. I have 2 kids 18 and 14. The oldest has special needs that I can no longer handle, and my 14 year old lives with grandma. I was homeless for 9 months last year that's why the 14 year old isn't here. My fiance wants to be a female full time and I cant accept that. So now I am single with no kids because I cant handle it anymore. I have no one I can turn to. I don't have family I am lose to. My grandma died 3 years ago and with her I could talk about anything. I have nothing. I feel like nothing. I am a failure in relationships, and as a parent. I am on medications and they usually work. But nothing works. I cry at the stupidest things, I get so mad I want to throw things, then I want to crawl into a hole and never come out. I'm too chicken to try and hurt my self.