Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Lilly23 07/27/2018

I have been severely and chronically depressed since I was 14. It's an everyday thing for me. I've been on all kinds of medications and different dosages but nothing helps. I've been in therapy, I've done a ton of self-help work but nothing makes it feel better for me. I literally drag myself through life everyday and honestly I don't really have a life. I have nothing to look forward to, nothing to live for.

I live alone in isolation despite taking steps to be social. No1 wants me or wants to talk to me or get to know me. I'm only met with disappointment and rejection bcuz I'm never what anybody wants and the ones I want don't want me.

I hate the way I feel everyday... it's beyond miserable but yet it never seems to get better no matter what. I'm not currently suicidal... even tho I think about it often... but understand very well why some 1 would go that route.

Ghostwolf04 07/27/2018

I understand feeling lonely and unwanted. I used to feel that way because no one would date me. All my friends got married and had kids and left me behind. I eventually realized that the fairy tale I was looking for doesn't exist. So I just started meeting up with all kinds of guys online, some creeps. Eventually I learned enough about dating that I attracted a man that made me feel like I had something to live for. For the first time in my life I felt normal and not empty. But he turned out to be a sociopath. He was a predator who took advantage of my ignorance and innocence and did unspeakable things to me and caused me great pain. When I finally got away from him I was only consumed by hate and anger and questions. I kept thinking it was better before when I felt starving and empty. I'm not sure when or if I was ever happy but at least before him wasn't as painful. After him was a year of whoring in bars and desperately trying to find someone to tell me there wasn't anything wrong with me, to fill that void that was worse now because I knew what not feeling it was like. I was so broken until my fiance found me. He didn't make me feel judged or fat or ugly or stupid. He was the first man who didn't abuse me or have a serious personality disorder or depression. Sure he was too skinny and kinda dorky and smoked nasty cigars. But even tho I settled for a not perfect fairy tale man, he still tries to make me happy on a reg basis and treats me like a person.
My point is maybe lower your standards and you will find someone to make you feel less empty. Or put yourself thru what I did so you will know there is worse than that feeling, then the emptiness won't seem so bad.

lionfox 07/27/2018

I often go through the same thoughts you do almost exactly.

shadowlady 07/27/2018

I'm so sorry, Lilly, my friend. You're very dear to me. Sorry I haven't touched base today. Text me Sweetie.

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