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feeling hopeless

christinaanneparker
christinaanneparker

I have my good days and I have my bad days when it comes to my depression. When I have my good days I'm fine. When I have my bad days, I want to take my life and/or thinking about self harming myself to make myself feel better. I've been seeing a therapist on and off for years. My grandmother passed away 8 years ago and that's when my depression started. Very recently (almost 2 months ago) my uncle passed away. I took my grandmother's passing harder than my uncle's passing. I just feel hopeless and I just want to die so that I can be with my grandmother and uncle again.

suicidal
suicidal
thinking about taking my life is definitely on the regular for me and I've been drinking and cutting a lot recently to try to make myself feel better. I'm sorry for your loss but maybe you could focus on the loved ones that will miss you if you joined your grandmother and uncle. Sorry if that sounds cliche, you've probably heard that a lot.
Heidiclark
Heidiclark
Sorry for your losses. I know how hard it can be to reach out when you're feeling depressed but do you have friends and/or other family you could talk to? It's so important not to cut ourselvesoff from others when we are going through a hard time. And I am saying that to myself as much as to you.
Community LeaderWanderingVet
WanderingVet
"I want to take my life and/or thinking about self harming myself to make myself feel better."

That will NEVER work.

"I just want to die so that I can be with my grandmother and uncle again."

There is absolutely no certainty that you would be.

You need to concentrate on the present time and begin creating a good future for yourself. The past is occupying way too much of your mental state.