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Feeling hopeless.

Davidh3777
Davidh3777

For months now, I've been feeling like a shadow walking on earth. Every time I try to talk to people, I am let down because "I'm too weird" or simply because I just don't fit. I can go weeks missing and no one would notice.. sounds like an exaggeration but that's how I see it. I used to be some what happy in high school but after it all finished it's like all hope was lost. Everyone is out succeeding while me, I'm just a huge failure. Just like how my ex made me feel like crap when she cheated on me with 2 guys. But that's not the point.. I just can't seem to focus on anything. I don't have motivation for nothing. Most days I go without speaking to anyone. I feel sad inside.. I feel the pain in my heart.. I feel it affecting me.. like it's killing bit by bit. sometimes I look at suicide and debate if it's worth ending the pain. But I'm too afraid to do it. What keeps me from committing suicide is looking at a picture when I was a toddler with my parents.. I think about the pain I'll cause them. I don't want that but then again I don't want to keep living this miserable life.

Littlelooloo
Littlelooloo
You are amazing to have stayed so strong. I too feel almost exactly the way you do so if you need anyone to talk too when you're feeling at your lowest, you can talk to me if you want. The fact that you're still here and that you've taken a small step by coming on here and expressing how you feel, is amazing and you should know that.

Stay strong xx
Sparkle-04
Sparkle-04
It sound like u have a supportive parents if u think about not breaking their hearts. U can express to your parents how u feel because theyre your number one fan. They love u. Dont be afraid to go to them. I was the same way and i kept everything bottle up for so long that im dying inside. Once i express them my thoughts theyve done anythn they can do to help. They will do the same and u will feel better.
Sparkle-04
Sparkle-04
Just like my dad told me..dont ever think u're a failure. Some people take time to get where they want to be. U WILL succeed.
annieheart
annieheart
I feel like im different from most. Then I think is there a such thing as normal. It seems like normal is a false description of a person, we all have quirks maybe some more than others. We really cant tell someones struggles by looking at them. Its ok to be different. Be glad you found out your ex can not be honest and faithful. There is someone out there for you. If you need to talk DS is the perfect place to do so.
bridgie101
bridgie101
Okay so you have felt crap for a couple of months. And I'm sure there will be times in your life that are longer than a few months when you will feel crap again but I promise, it will never be this bad.

I'm glad you love your parents because you'd do for them if you ended it. Think about what they might be saying to themselves at your grave side. If only he'd told me. If only he'd said something. Take pity on them. Tell them.

You need to see your doctor and get meds, maybe counselling, to make you okay inside yourself again. This way you won't come across weird. If you don't think you can say what's wrong, write it in a note. if you can find someone (anyone) to go with you, take them. It helps, but you can do this alone; I know, because I had to as well. But remember your parents at your grave. 'if only he'd said, I would have taken him to the doctor'. Take pity on them.

Having no friends, being lonely, with no job, is demoralising. Being cheated on by a girlfriend is demoralising. It's truly awful. Youthful misery is so much worse than misery later on. Young people think things are about them, not realising they'd happen to anybody.

We all get our share of bad luck. you're having a giant pile now, and you'll have good luck later. I think as things go that this is a good way around to do it.

Now go get some antidepressants, tell your mum you're really miserable. Tell her what's happened. This way you can make a start on coming right and growing into a strong young adult.

:)
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