What is DBT? Have you try counseling options at a church? I have used them and some are low cost and some are actually free. Some churches also offer support groups for free. There has got to be options for you.

God is great and knows what he is doing. He hasn't taken you home because he has plans for you.

Thank you. I will look into some churches where I live. I wish I knew the plans that he has for me!!!!!!!

DBT stands for Dialectical Behavior Therapy. it is a six month program. It is costly.

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I can relate with you about your feelings because I had a bad experience myself yesterday. Because of the stress that had been going on in my life, I no longer feel like that free caring person I used to be, it is hard for me to just sit and relax like I used to. Yesterday I felt so restless that I could scream (I'm still feeling that way now). In fact I'm still feeling that way now. I feel very emotional and keep asking myself the question Why? I know that no one has an answer but it still hurts inside. Maybe I'm grieving the life I used to have or I don't know what it is. Anyways... it saddens me to see the depression surrounding me everyday. I'm trying not to lose hope.

In reading your post, I thought about the times my mom and I went to therapist who was suppose to help those who are hurting emotionally from depression, traumatic stress, health and so forth but guess what? she told my mom the same thing that was told to you by your counselor. So many times I had asked God to please take me now, I'm ready but I guess he did not want to hear that. Again I can relate to the feeling.

I just do not understand why they won't send you to a councillor or a phicatrist...it makes no sense to me .... sometimes we have to be very pushed with our doctors to get the treatment we want ......sometimes we have to demand that we get the care we want ...before they will give it to us .. .....have you told your doctor you just can't afford to go to that other treatment ......and you have things you need to talk about .........because for us to heal we need to let out everything that has ever hurt us .............you have 4 of the top biggest stress problems there are .......sorry I see here it is your therapist that Sayers she can't work for you ......go and see your family doctor and tell him you are very depressed and dealing with to much stress ....and you want to see a phicaatrist than .......I am seeing one now and have been for 10 years ....before I had to see him every north than every third month ...and now in the last 2 years once every 6 months .....you relay need to start living one day at a time and the way to start is that you right everything down on your calendar all the important dates things you need to do ......than you can right a list of what you need to do an put it on the table or some ware you will see it ...and if you only do one thing on that list you did good ...and you tell yourself you did good .....you have to try not to think of tomorrow... that doesn't count ......you think only of today ...and not of yesterday ........so live one day at a time ......each new day is a new beginning ............before I started writing. ...all the important things I had to do in the month ....appointments ...birthdays .....whatever ....I would be always worried I would forget something so I was always thinking of the future ....and could not ground my self to the present ........same goes to the past if you live to much in the past you can't ground your self good enough into the present and you worry about everything and the anxiety just keeps pilling up and the depression gets worse ....to keep from living in the past you need to journal ...........try to wright in it each day ....on one side put what ever was negative about what you went through that day or just what you were thinking about ......and across from that make a column for anything positive that you saw heard ....or happened that day .....this will help to give you more balance in your life ......the snap ablest thing can be in thus list ......if you saw a bird ...take a Minuit to look at it ...and see how beautiful .gods creations are ...same goes for a flower ever a wed if it is in the ditch and has a pretty flower. Take a minute to see the different shades of that colour there are in that flower ....so you can do this with anything .......if you see a loved one ....and enjoyed there company .....that is a positive .....we are to Easley ..lead to see the negative that we miss right what is in front of us ... ..........this will also help you live one day at a time .....one other thing my doctor and I thought I could never be that person ...but he told me if I wanted to get better this is how it had to be ........I was number one ..and my h is munger two ...and the rest don't count .......I am very lucky to have the husband I have ....he realy helped me. it be able to adjust into thid new life I had never lived befor ......he told our children they weren't yo come to me with there problems but that they could go to him and he would decide if it was something I needed to know ..........and he took me to a camp ground 3 miles from our house and we bought a trailer ...I relay wasn't sure I could do it and he told me if I just couldn't get use to it we would sell it .....it was far enough that I was away from the kids ..and we only had a cell phone for emergencies .....or if they were coming to visit ......so we were there for 10 years and than they closed it down ....this is the best thing I have ever done for my self .it is paying off ....so these are some of the things you can do ....I hope you find the things that help you ....let us know how it goes ....take care ...god less

I Love What CHRISTOPHER Said!!!

I Credit My Pastor (Pastor Phil :) For Saving My Life.
Please Stay Strong Sweetheart.

GIANT ((((HUGS)))