Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Anna1212 01/13/2019

i don't think i really am a hypocrite but when i give people support an advice on here when my life is such a mess it feels weird. i am struggling just as much as many on here, thinking of killing myself all the time and then telling others to hang in there. i mean, it's sincere when i say that but i don't feel that way for myself. i don't want to hang in there. i know what if feels like to want to stop. to have exhausted so many option, to be physically destroyed, mentally so down you feel like you are going crazy and seeing no way out and on top of that, having things continue to get worse. i do. i feel like i am going insane. this is no way to live. and then to have to just keep going anyway or life will just steam roll over you. i don't have anyone to fall back on, in fact many are depending on me for survival. i am going to take a hot bath and go to the damn store. hope your weekend is going better than mine.

baybdots 01/13/2019

I know how your feel I struggle through every day. I work in the Mental Health field but there is still no on to talk to when I feel like this. The suicidal thought drive me crazy I envy people who can follow through with it I just can not do it do not know why My therapist say it is because I know that is not the answer I do not know about that Hope your bath helped

Brooke911 01/13/2019

I don't think anyone here is a hypocrite. We are all here trying to get some peace of mind or help. I know coming here and reading what everyone else is going through helps me out. Please never feel like you are a hypocrite.

Anna1212 01/13/2019

thanks for your replies. I feel that way too brooke when I read what other people are going through it makes me feel better/less alone which makes me feel sort of guilty but I just hate feeling like i'm the only one who feels this way. I know what you mean babydots about wanting to do it and not being able to do it and envying the people who do. I know suicide isn't really right or the best option but I understand it and I don't judge people who do it and sometimes even envy them. what kills me is life shouldn't be this bad. it just shouldn't feel this back, this stuck, this awful and painful every day. that can't be natural. yea, it was a nice bath. and I think that's my lot. not to expect much out of life but to force myself to go through the motions and try to enjoy the little things like a bath or a meal. it makes me feel sad. everyone deserves more than that. thank you for listening to me. I don't feel as alone when I come here.

Felicia71 01/14/2019

I'm going on 2 years since I almost killed myself. Even texted the love of my life and said "I just killed myself" because he didn't answer the phone and needed to talk to my best friend, which he is. We still talk about it now. But when I was at that point, I just wanted the pain and loneness to go away. I did it with my heart meds ( about 130 pills) and beer. When the ambulance came to get me, I don't remember anything. But flashes of the doctor's working on me and then a bright light and I was not cold anymore. I woke up a day or 2 later intubated, central lines on both side, and ivs in both arm's and tided down. I got lucky and didn't have to go to the mental health hospital. Because of what I did , now my stomach and heart are bad. I just wanted to tell you that it's not worth the pain, health problems, and what you are gonna do to your loved ones. I was lucky and my husband stood by my side. But it's a fight that I em willing to fight every day. It's worth trying to get through that hurt. Life can be beautiful! Please hang in there, and know I'm here for you all!

HisDaughter 01/14/2019

There are other people who feel the same way you do. And I believe that how you feel can help you when you encounter people who have similar experiences and feelings. You are able to understand and sympathize with others. I do not know why life is bad but I hope that you overcome the negative feelings. Taking a hot bath was a good idea. We all need to take care of ourselves and work hard at doing what it good for us. It is not easy being in your place. But I do not think anyone has it easy. We all have struggles. I wish you many blessings!

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