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I feel like I could be falling out of love with my wonderful boyfriend. I don't want to and I just feel like i'm not interested anymore. I just keep analyzing every little thing and I am super irritable.
We have been living together for 4 months and we have both gained weight, and are unhappy with our appearances. That has definitely distanced us, we aren't as lovey as we once were.
He is everything I ever dreamed of, (the way he treats me, the things he does, the way he holds me) and he's been there with me thick and thin.
One morning after bickering a couple days in a row, I found myself wondering to myself:
" do I really love him?"
"am I in love"
"what does being in love feel like"
"how would I feel if something tragic happened to him"
I also put other people in perspective and it feels like I just don't care for some reason. I'm not sure if I would be upset if something tragic happened to anyone I dearly love. I just don't understand how one day it can hit me like this. Just two weeks ago at a family members wedding we were having a great time. I could almost see us as the happy couple... Then bam Sunday I sulked in self misery doubting everything about our relationship, and have done so all week.
I have been diagnosed with anxiety and OCD, so I am wondering if this could be OCD and constantly wondering what if this and what if that...
I have decided I am going to water and nourish our relationship because he is all I want and need in a man. Money stresses may have got me to the point where I am today. I just hope one day I will be able to feel how I felt about him a month ago.
I love him so dearly and I am crying as I write this. That must mean I have some feelings right?
This is so hard. I have been completely honest with him about my thoughts and feelings, and I feel guilty. This is seriously making me more depressed.
On a side note; I am on 50mg of Zoloft daily for anxiety.
Do you think this is common for any relationship for someone with anxiety/depression/OCD? Or is he really not the man for me?
We have been living together for 4 months and we have both gained weight, and are unhappy with our appearances. That has definitely distanced us, we aren't as lovey as we once were.
He is everything I ever dreamed of, (the way he treats me, the things he does, the way he holds me) and he's been there with me thick and thin.
One morning after bickering a couple days in a row, I found myself wondering to myself:
" do I really love him?"
"am I in love"
"what does being in love feel like"
"how would I feel if something tragic happened to him"
I also put other people in perspective and it feels like I just don't care for some reason. I'm not sure if I would be upset if something tragic happened to anyone I dearly love. I just don't understand how one day it can hit me like this. Just two weeks ago at a family members wedding we were having a great time. I could almost see us as the happy couple... Then bam Sunday I sulked in self misery doubting everything about our relationship, and have done so all week.
I have been diagnosed with anxiety and OCD, so I am wondering if this could be OCD and constantly wondering what if this and what if that...
I have decided I am going to water and nourish our relationship because he is all I want and need in a man. Money stresses may have got me to the point where I am today. I just hope one day I will be able to feel how I felt about him a month ago.
I love him so dearly and I am crying as I write this. That must mean I have some feelings right?
This is so hard. I have been completely honest with him about my thoughts and feelings, and I feel guilty. This is seriously making me more depressed.
On a side note; I am on 50mg of Zoloft daily for anxiety.
Do you think this is common for any relationship for someone with anxiety/depression/OCD? Or is he really not the man for me?
I am wondering if the Zoloft has numbed you a bit.
It helps to write all of this out.
I think OCD feeds on the things most important to me to a point of self sabotage..
"( My therapist tells me that it's not the content of the worry it's just that my anxiety needs an outlet, and if I search for answers it keeps me occupied)"
...sounds about right to me.
Do you often feel like you will sabotage any good thing that comes your way?
That's a good idea to combat it together... make it a team effort. We have always referred to ourselves as team "kayak" (kayla and jack) together...
I jsut hate that I thought/think/am thinking about these things. I feel like I'm betraying him.
Thank you for responding. It just helped me to get it off of my chest in writing. To actually write out his good qualities rather than focus on the stupid little things that annoy me... I can't wait to go home and give him a big hug tonight.