WELL TODAY I HAD A MEETING AT MY SONS SCHOOL TO SEE IF HE WILL GRADUATE THIS YEAR.MY SON ABSOLUTELY HATES SCHOOL BECAUSE HE HAS GREAT PROBLEMS WITH READING AND WRITING.TO CONFIRM MY FEARS THEY SAID HE DOESNT HAVE ENOUGH CREDITS TO GRADUATE.THEY MIGHT AS WELL TOLD HIM TOO BAD GO HOME WITH YOUR MOM NOW.IT WAS A VERY DUMB MEETING WITH SNOBS WHO DONT KNOW WHATS REALLY GOING ON .THEY HAVE HAD FOUR YEARS TO FIGURE OUT HIS CREDITS AND WHEN ITS TO LATE ,ITS TO BAD SO SAD SHIT! I DROVE HOME IN TEARS BECAUSE I FELT LIKE SUCH A FAILURE TO MY SON.I BLAME MYSELF FOR NEVER REALLY HAVING TIME TO HELP HIM.I ALWAYS HAD TO WORK TO TAKE CARE OF EVERYONE.MY JOBS WERE DEMANDING AND AT NIGHT SO I NEVER HAD THE TIME OR ENERGY TO WORK ON HIS READING AND OTHER SCHOOLING.HIS FATHER NEVER LEARNED TO READ AND WRITE AND HAS LOOKED TO ME ALL THESE YEARS TO TAKE CARE OF EVERYTHING.......I FEEL THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD CRUSHING ME......MY SON REALLY WANTS A JOB CLEANING FACTORIES AND I AM GONNA HELP HIM GET IN ANY WAY I CAN.AT THIS POINT I AM GONNA LOOK INTO IF I CAN HOME SCHOOL HIM,I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE TO START BUT HE REALLY NEEDS A DIPLOMA.LIFE IS HARD ENOUGH WITH ONE LET ALONE NOT HAVING ONE.I HAVE THREE OTHER KIDS AND I HOPE I HAVE NOT FAILED THEM AS WELL.I HAVE ALWAYS WORKED HARD FOR MY KIDS TO HAVE A GOOD LIFE AND I GAVE UP THE SPECIAL TIME I SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE MORE FOR THIER EDUCATION.WHAT RESPONCIBILITY DOES THE SCHOOL SYSTEMS ACCOUNT FOR???????SHOULDNT PARENTS BE ABLE TO WORK GUILT FREE TO TAKE CARE OF THIER FAMILY NEEDS AND LEAVE THIER EDUCATIONS TO THE TEACHERS AND SCHOOLS??????NO IT SEEMS THE KIDS BRING MORE AND MORE SCHOOL WORK HOME TO BE DONE AT NIGHT.WHAT ARE THEY DOING IN SCHOOL????WHAT HAPPENENS TO ALL THE KIDS WHO DONT HAVE SOMEONE AT HOME NIGHTS TO HELP????I AM SO STRESSED AND SAD I TELL EVERYONE TO LOOK AHEAD NOT BACK BUT SO MUCH FOR MY OWN ADVICE I WISH I COULD START OVER AND BE A BETTER MOM.......
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