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I am fed up with failing.
I feel like all I do is fail. I blame myself for things clearly beyond my control and I feel like a constant let-down.
Things never go well at this time of year, the period from christmas to my birthday is always hell but it's worse than usual this year. No idea why tho, it just is.
The dog is ill. He has been to the vets but he is steadily getting worse. A starvation diet with chicken and rice has not helped, so another trip to the vets that I can barely afford. If I lose my dog, I have failed yet another living thing. I am just pathetic. I dont even know why Im posting here. I am not going to take my own life, not yet anyway. I just need something, I dont even know what I am asking for. Just a break I guess, a week where nothing shits on me.
Until I get that break, I'll just go on failing an hoping for something better.
I feel like all I do is fail. I blame myself for things clearly beyond my control and I feel like a constant let-down.
Things never go well at this time of year, the period from christmas to my birthday is always hell but it's worse than usual this year. No idea why tho, it just is.
The dog is ill. He has been to the vets but he is steadily getting worse. A starvation diet with chicken and rice has not helped, so another trip to the vets that I can barely afford. If I lose my dog, I have failed yet another living thing. I am just pathetic. I dont even know why Im posting here. I am not going to take my own life, not yet anyway. I just need something, I dont even know what I am asking for. Just a break I guess, a week where nothing shits on me.
Until I get that break, I'll just go on failing an hoping for something better.
Isn't that great with so many mistreated pets out there? You are doing something to be proud of and not failing at all. Best wishes to you and your dog.
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I am sorry you are feeling this way, you're not alone. You're taking such good care of you beloved dog. I hope he gets well, soon. You're a wonderful person and you will get through this. Please, keep posting and let us know how you and your beloved dog is. I care alot. We all care alot about you and your dog and we are here to support you.
not sure if you saw my thread from earlier today on the reg depression board but anyway to sum up I was saying how I hate these ups and downs... how many times lately I have had a set date to die and then something will give me a glimmer of hope and then the date will pass and then everything turns to shit again and it ALWAYS happens... I am so emotionally drained... I feel like I haven;t even had a chance to really mourn my mom because there has just been one thing after another...
anyway I know what it is like to feel cursed... I believe I am... I think it isn't even statistically possible for so many things to go wrong and yet everything for me does...
Still feeling like crap, still low but thank you all for caring.
I am sending out good vibes for good news at his 3:30 appointment.
I hope you feel better soon; I hope your dog does, also.
What's your dog's name?
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I am sorry you are so down on yourself...I do understand it, though, as I tend to be much the same. I shoulder blame for things that have nothing to even do with me. I get it.
All I can suggest is to maybe sit and talk it out with someone you love. Sometimes, hearing from a person you trust, that you are not a failure, and are not to blame for the things you accept blame for, is enough to clear the perspective a little.
I hope that the vet is able to help your dog. I am sure the dog's illness is not something that you had any control over. Please try hard to understand and accept that. Will your vet maybe offer you a payment plan, so you don't have to break the bank at this visit? It's worth asking I guess.
You will be in my thoughts, and I hope you'll continue to reach out for the support you need and deserve. Big hugs.xxxxxxxxx
Sleep well, Obeylix, you have taken very good care of your dog. We are all here to support you, whenever you need us.
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