so i decided to talk to my father and tell him how i felt, and he completely blew up at me. He says it's all my fault that i am where i am, and i agree with him. He says this world is a hard place where nobody will care about you and that you have to go for your own, and i agree with him. He put in such a way that hurt my feelings tho, and i guess i'm just too sensitive but fuck it and fuck him, cause i didnt ask for this life..i dnt feel the need to go out my way for something i don't even want...you know, i thought that i could always talk to my family but i know now that i can't, well atleast i tried. and from reading all this stuff back i already know my answer...dnt want to try to live than just die. i want to, and i will, i just want to do it soon, soo soon that i wont have to spend another day in this world...i really do and i swear i will...geez, i fucking hate myself, i hate the way i'm sitting here crying like a dumbass, if anybody saw how disguisting and ugly i look right now they would agree with me....idk i'll pray to my God that he'll end this soon, i just hope they all cry for me