Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Well i guess i can't really call Matt a "maggot " anymore- i got a shocking phone call and found out - the doctor told him- he probably has 7 years left to live.... life is so short! i wanted him to be punished but not in this way! i hope its ok that i feel sad and i care and i want to prevent this though i know i probably can't- i want him to be on a special diet, do everything they can - if it is at all possible to transplant pancreases-he is getting one! if u can live with half of one- he can have half of mine! i know what its like not having a father and i won't let his 2 boys go through that! though he is not with me- he is a human being and no matter what he put me through - i don't want him to die! someone tell me i'm not being irrational here! i want to go take care of him- i want to run into his arms and say- i'm here and i'll take u to get treatments and we will fight this- u will make it through! i've convinced myself that i'm cursed- every man i love - dies of something horrible- and everyone i love or get close to gets something horrible that they die from- how much more am i gonna have to go through til god says ok Brandi's had enough suffering! cause i'm near the breaking point now! just take my life and trade it for his god- take me instead! i can't watch another person die! my mom died of colon cancer- my first love died of 2 heart attacks and now this- why me lord? why must i suffer - am i being punished for all my sins! ? cause i believe i am- anyways i'm numb now- was very sad now its like i'm walking around in a daze- just wanted u all to know i'll no longer be calling him names - instead i'll be praying cause after all thats all i can do.. :(
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My 6mo twin DD's are EBF and just started rice cereal on the first. Everything has been going fine except this morning one of them had a diaper rash (lots of redness around her anus). I read this as one of the signs of an allergy. BUT I did just buy a different brand diaper yesterday (which they have used randomly before w/no issues). Do you think its the cereal or the diaper? Im ready to start...
When I was 23 I was diagnosed with terminal cancer at the initial diagnosis I was told I'd be lucky to see 6 months. 2 1/2 yrs later I stopped my treatments because they said there was no point to them and that I had about 6 weeks if I was lucky... That was 3 yrs ago. The point is doctors don't always know- it depends a lot on the person.
If you want to run to him and support him- do it!! Just make sure you are supporting him in the way he needs- not the way you need. Don't pretend that everything is all honky dory but make sure you go to someone else- not him- with your difficulties in dealing with this.... thats my best advise.
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