Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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LilyJohnson7 08/14/2018

Hi everyone. So for the past few months things have gotten really hard. I battle trying to live everyday. I just want to die but I can't do that to the people I love. It's just, everyday is constant pain, just waiting for life to pass by. How are you guys dealing with severe depression and suicidal thought? Note: I live in a country where the health system is failing and especially the mental health system. Going to the emergency room during suicidal thought means you wait for like 4 hours, maybe get to talk to a doctor, and then you're sent home with absoloutly nothing so going to get proffesional help is kind of out of the picture.

thornesaab 08/14/2018

Can you tell us what youre worrying about and why you do not want to live anymore? Ive had suicidal thoughts too but im way too sensitive to carry out.
I have ocd and intrusive thoughts and lots of anxiety.

The way i deal with this is... i wait until im in a safe place alone. Then i plan to battle the next stage of anxiety and i still have hopes of one day living a life like in my best dreams.

Don't you have hopes for something? Maybe if you just wait more it could get better? Killing yourself would only hurt a lot and ifnyou dont find any solution just wait. Do something repetitive like watching youtube videos or so. Good luck girl

SimpsonsOK 08/14/2018

Lily, so sorry the system there is so letting you down. I found reading lots of replies to posts began to give me tools others had used. Not all were right for me, but enough were to build a toolbox. Depression tells us we are hopeless and will always be. One more of depression's lies. We are here for you. Peer support is an important part of my getting better, and help to make it back up the downward spiral of depression. Comforting hugs.

Ghostwolf04 08/14/2018

Vitamins help me alot and making sure I get enough water and sleep. If I think of a happy or productive thought I try to expand on it so it occupies my thoughts most of the day instead of the sad thoughts. I also feel better if I distract myself with video games, gardening, mini golf, group board games, exercise, or exploring new recipes. My mom told me today she thinks some of my problems may be allergy related. I may look into that.

LilyJohnson7 08/14/2018

I'm going through marijuana withdrawal. I'm trying to quit but it isn't going well and I feel like more of a loser everyday. I started smoking to help with pain but now I can't live without it. The physical pain is horrible as well as I´m nauseous and dizzy but the mental pain is the worst. Feel like a complete failure and like I don't deserve anything good from life anymore. I've also had to lie about it alot which is making me so guilty it's eating me up. I don't know how I'll ever escape this hellhole :(

rachel.2535 08/15/2018

LilyJohnson7 - I am so sorry you are going through this right now but I have to say way to go in deciding to quit! That is brave and only proves you are not the things you are thinking during this hard transition. When working through my own addiction the guilt got to me also. I felt so worthless and dumb. But these are lies! You are worth so much and deserve to be happy, healthy and whole! You don’t have to hold on to that guilt...we all mess up (believe me I used to be so good at messing up still am at times). But when we do mess up the important thing is you learn from it and choose to walk a different way the next time. There are a lot of resources online that can help you or help you find a good therapist near you. Let me know if you would like some sites. By the way the only way for me to deal with the guilt I had was giving it to God. Praying for you -Rachel

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