Depression Support Group
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im just drowning and i dont know how to get the damn life jacket on in time to save my own stupid butt.i havent told my wife my real feelings lately or should i say lack of feelings. she has long term illness and i have turned into a caregiver and i dont want her to feel stressed or do anything silly like try to help me so i have been putting on fake smiles for almost a year now and pretending everything is alright.when everything isnt.i am so numb. i feel almost nothing anymore.xmas used to b my fav holiday and this year i didnt even put up one decoration or even buy one present for anybody.but now the wife is on me. asking me every day "whats wrong?"and i just flash a smile and say nothing is wrong. i am fine, everything is ok.she is my wife and i need to tell her i just dont know how.everytime i come close to thinking i can tell her i am reminded of her illness. of all the crap she has gone through in her life and i cant tell her.but im so tired of pretending.this is not a relationship.not like this. but how can i as a wife and a human being put my own issues onto an ill person?idk know anything anymore. any thoughts on my situation?
i feel for you my friend, it sounds like you have a lot weighing on your heart. First off, i think as your wife she deserves to know what's going on with you. It may be hard to just bring your feelings up like that, so i say take the opportunity she gives you when she asks "what's wrong" to express yourself. i think that you're trying to protect your wife from having to deal with any additional stress but if you're walking around numb and just not yourself she's going to notice, and is noticing, and i can only imagine how stressful that is for her to know that the person she loves is hurting but wont tell her what's hurting. It 's going to be hard to care for her if you're hurt inside so just let it out, the fact that she's asking you means that she cares and wants to know. depend on her while she depends on you, you guys are married and have to be there for eachother.
i hope 2014 will be good to you and your wife, and you can always come here to vent if it's hard to express yourself anywhere else, i'm here to talk with you if you need advice and whatnot.