Hi
I just wanted to put a few things out there. I feel drained. I have been sick for the third time in ninety days, very sick, sick enough to not be able to go to work. It crossed my mind that maybe I could have mono, but I don't know about the chance of that. I missed two days of work last week, and worked today. Now, I am lying in bed and feel really hot. I am not registering an actual fever, and already went to the doctor, but I am still feeling hot. It is so hard to get around. I got back to school with a nasty email from a parent about how inconvenient it is for me to be out, boo hoo, that they didn't get to have their test and they wanted to have their test. Then a student said it was interesting how I was out the day of tests. Well screw it. I don't ask about their absences and why and I don't like it. I am sick of this and the other constant complaining. It never ends.

I finally made a decision and put myself on a list at work to be put into a lottery for another job. I have to admit to myself that I am unable to handle the situation any more. A very nasty letter was written about me, on top of some other things, and it has been one attack after the other.

I talked to a co-worker today, and was pretty surprised to learn that she has been doing therapy to cope with the same job. When she found out that she had to return to our profession, she became so depressed that she broke down and wound up going to therapy. This is really telling to me. I hear people in the lunchroom talking about people taking medical leave for psych reasons and I'm reviewing what I am doing here after all. Not a good thing. I am glad that I finally made a decision because I needed to do something. I am exploring my other options in the meantime and have a reference. Holding out for the best, or, doing my best to.

I feel like the back of my neck and my body are just burning.
orion