Cindy I believe you have depression, I have read and replied to some of your other posts.

The destructive outlets could also be causing you to be depressed.
For example: I have been struggling with alcohol lately. I had 8 years sober.

First I was depressed because I couldn't stop drinking the first time I drank after NOT drinking for 8 years....

But, now I also know that....drinking alcohol causes depression. So when I go on binges now...I become very depressed while drinking and when I stop.

But, Drs not understanding that you are depressed does not make sense to me...even with less severe symptoms than I have had lately...I was diagnosed with depression while sober 9 years ago....

I think you need to find a new Dr. /psychiatrist....Its not really the primary cares area to diagnose psychological issues..so I am not really surprised there (because someone has to take the time to get to know you), typical Dr. apts. are only...like 20 minutes.

But a psychiatrist...or therapist....would definitely recognize your depressed. I DO For Gods sake..and I don't know you.

Its primary dr who doesnt see it. I can say things that if i didnt laugh when i say it people would be scared for me but they think in joking. I just say robin williams joked all the time and he admitted he was depressed.

I have a few family members who insist im not depressed. One is a dr. She said she knows depression cause she was depressed. Shes a fertility dr. I was fired over 30 jobs. They say i didnt want to work. I only see these people maybe once a month. I always say things like i have nothing to live for or about dying. They laugh cause they think in joking. I can laugh while i say those things. They were mad i was in hospital a month ago. They said i am fine. I dont go into details or say much about what is wrong. They dont get it. There was serious destructive problem that got very severe that i had to be locked up so i could not do it. I could not stop eating. I was so sick. People dont understand it. Its something i dont discuss with people. I could not eat while i was in hospital. So i was ok. But day i got out i started right back where i left off. I physically could not take it anymore. I have not binged eat for a month now. I have seen many people in the hospital with depression and eating disorders. Depression has a lot of secondary problems. It was terrible i could not stop eating. I ate so much i would vomit from it. It was automatic not self induced bulimia.

MY HEART GOES OUT 2 U SWEETIE........................
HUGS
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here is what I am hearing ...that you have a lot of thing you don't tell anyone ..so I am woundering does that include the doctors ....the phicitrist ...because if that is the case than they can't help you ..you need to talk ...you need to tell them ...maby not your family doctor but defenatly your phicitrist everything that is and has ever hurt you and the thingd and payer us that you are hurting your self with because of how you feel ....this is the only way you will get the help you need ......and don't expect your family and friends to understand ...although some might be more understanding than others ..unless you have been through depreshion ...there is just know way they can understand what ..you are going through ...they can't imagin it ......I even had to bring my h to my phicitrist ...to have him educated ...about depreshion and what I was going through ....and how he wasent helping ..several times .......jurnaling is very good to ...but keep it for your self ....but you might right somthing you would like to tell your phicitrist ........if ..you find it hard to talk you can always right it Dowen ...at first .....but if you want to heal you need to talk .........I found that out the hard way ..I never talked and I ended up in the hospital ....and had to have ect .to get me back ..I had shut dowen ..I stoped talking or looking at eneyone ....they gave me ..ECT ....because I was going dowen to far to fast ...it was a life saver ...for me ....let me tell you I learned to talk ..........take care ...God bless ......

Depression is a nasty character...we can be going along right as rain and the WHAM we are back in the hole again...seemingly for no reason. You are starting to recognize the signs and that is good. Pay attention to that. Ask for help when you need it. It is not failure, it is an illness. The only failure is when we stop trying. If you don't feel this doctor is listening to you..find a new one. HUGS honey.

mishka 13 ........you are so right ...and express it so simply ...such good advice ........for you ....Cindy ..take care ..God bless ..

People who know what depression is are telling me im not depressed cause they have it. I am avoiding them.

My psych dr doesnt think i have an eating problem. You are ok you lost a lot of weight. I dont want to hear it. I never tried to lose weight. I blame effexor. I can eat so much in one day and gain 5 pounds. Weight can fluctuate. I go through times i can not stop eating. I can eat cardboard or dirt. I dont care what it is. Or stupid Professionals say you eat healthy, if they see you eating a fruit. So what. You can eat more of it to equal the junk food. Like an alcoholic can drink more beer to equal the hard liquor. They can have more of it. I can eat one pound of grapes to equal 2 cookies. They are very sweet. I can eat longer and more. Idiot dr, therapists dont get it. Too much fruit can make you feel very sick. Your stomach bloats. I torture myself by making me sick. These morons get me mad who mention my weight. I walk away. I am not talking about my binge eating with people. When i get comments its good i lost weight. I now say i dont care. 400 lbs or 200 lbs im still a piece of shit that should be dead. But i smile while i say it so im ok. Btw i am still obese.