yeah, when really down, I usually overeat so I don't mind it but I did notice I was losing weight too quick and couldn't eat so I ate soup I made from recipes on google. Bread with butter dipped in it is lovely and a few more calories. What do you do about it when it happens? Has this been happening for a while? Are you depressed? Is it S.A.D? How come you lose motivation once a year? Is it around the same time every year? Sorry loadsa questions lol

Yes I am depressed.. I've been in and out of a toxic marriage for years and I have been diagnosed with anxiety/depression and prescribed celexa.. It does make me have more of an appetite, but I quit taking it a couple months ago because it was affecting my sleep... Things have gotten bad for me financially and I cut contact with my husband on Oct30 because I couldnt take it anymore.. My thoughts never stop, and when I feel this bad I lose my appetite.. Its not SAD cuz I'm in California and its sunny and warm..

I'm sorry you're going through this, feeling no desire even to eat. I've been there, It feels so heavy. I hope you will take gentle care of yourself. Try to remember you must have food - it's not like taking a shower which can be put off. Eat at least a tiny bit several times a day. It's important. Hugs

I'm glad you got away from your husband. And you could still be having vitamin D deficiency in sunny places if you don't go outside enough.

Thank you for your responses.. I am forcing myself to eat.. I've gone through times in the past where I lost so much weight it looked unhealthy.. I dont want to get to that point ever again. & I get plenty of sunshine..I cant stand to be indoors for too long or I become a sad couch potato running the same thoughts through my mind over and over.. I go walking/running or take my kids to the park every day.

Is there a chance you can get to a mental health clinic for folks with little to no income? I think the local chapter of NAMI in your area can help you to find help. You sound like you could use a few sessions of therapy and maybe a medication adjustment. Of course I'm not a professional so I would leave it up to a therapist and / or a P-Doc. Your children deserve to have a healthy and happy mother. If for no other reason seek help for their sake. ((( Hugs )))

You are right, they deserve a happy & healthy mom.. They are the only things that keep me going.. I actually have free access to therapists through the military.. I went from July to October and it helped a little.. Its hard for me to talk about painful things face to face though.. Thats why I'm trying out the online support groups.. I want to be able to post anonymously and also learn from everyone else who has gone through these issues.. If I do end up losing weight over this I will go back to therapy though..

I wish you the best in whatever you do to find help. D/S is a wonderful resource. So if you can find all you need here that's great.I truly hope you feel better very soon.

I usually try to eat myself to death when I am down. I am on a don't want to eat spiral right now and I love it. I know, yours is a different situation.

Like Drake said, go to therapy for your kids sake if not you on. And remember, you said it was usually once a year,it will go away.

Sunshine is great for depression and walking. I don't get nearly as much. I can remember coming out of bouts of depression and almost chocking on the fresh air to get it in my lungs quick enough.

Keep doing what you are doing and please see a therapist or pdoc. Do you think it could be SAD.? Sesonal Affective Disorder since it only happens once a year. Anyway, that is up for the doctors to determine. Just food for thought.

You are under a lot of strain just coming out of a bad relationship. It takes time to stand up on your own. But, you can do it.