I'm sorry you have to put up with this. Are you on any antidepressants? It took years of trying but I think I am finally on the right combination of meds for my depression. It really does help. Also, I would recommend therapy if you can afford it. That has been really helpful to me in the past. I can't afford it right now, so I understand where you're coming from there. I have to choose between eating or therapy and I choose eating. I hope you have better luck somehow than I have had.

Annie

I hear you mal, sounds like you are expressing pain and despair. Being in the black hole of depression lies to us, telling us we want to give up. Many of us at one time or another thought and said, " I can't go on any more." The pain gets so deep it has us thinking our life is hopeless. All lies being told to us over and over.

Being in the black hole of depression makes one feel lonely, frightened and worried all the time. Pain is felt beyond what one can say. This is too much for others without mental illness to understand, comprehend. One has to hang on to "Hope," when in the deep, dark claws of the black hole of depression. You're not alone mal.

Hope you feel better soon.

Ok, if anyone told me..get over it.. I think I would view that person differently in my life. I also love the when you say you are severly (moderately whatever it is) people say oh you are so sad.. no I am empty.. a shell a nothing. There is sadness but just sadness would be a comfort compared to this.

I think you should talk to new people !

Life is life... it was a gift and then it gets warped and twisted. However, it is my life so I choose to try to fix it. I hope that you feel the same.

Depression does that to you. It makes you feel like your life just isn't worth it anymore. Trust me it is. I have tried to od several times and now I am on the right meds and have my grandson and I just want to be alive. That is such a good feeling. I went thru years of trying to kill myself and now I want to live. It can happen. Please hang in there and talk to your dr.

I used to get those kinds of answers too. Er, still do. People think I can snap my fingers and sweep away years of damage. What for? Just so they don't have to hear about it anymore. I'm not asking anyone to experience it with me. The quick fix just makes matters worse in the long run.

I'm pretty sure I used the Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde example a few days ago, too. At present, I'm just trying to minimize the intensity of my two extremes. I've also started taking meds. Writing angry journals helps too.

When people are trying to help they will say those things, heck even depressed people here will say those things to you too. We're fixers, most people are. I'm not sure they mean it should be a quick fix but there's a little thread of truth in all those cliche' phrases. The thing is depression is like a big ocean liner trying to turn around. It takes a while. Try not to think harshly of people who say these things to you. hugs.

I totally understand what you are saying...

When I was in hospital for my heart,I met a lovely lady.. Full of life and energy dispite being in hospital,well to shorten this..
she found out whilst there that she had terminal cancer...
I prayed sincerely that God would take my life in exchange for hers.
Of course it would be awful for my children, but she had children too and she could have got so much more from life than me!
It wasnt to be. I am still here and I am trying to get more from life so it doesnt feel in vain.....not doing very well. I'm on the same meds too. Takes the edge off.
I hope that you are able to find a suitable one for you. I hope you will keep fighting the dark and reach out.. Try and take some little thing in the day that makes you smile and grasp it with both hands!
Snow drops are blooming here and I take a little pleasure from knowing spring isnt far away..
Hugs to you.